happiness...
lifes great only wif a happy attitude.
yea. as such.
nowadays. im always wif a happy face around.
n many asked. " y u so happy? "
"y laugh again?"
well. bud in actual fact.
to those who knows mi best.
my laughter had declined kind of bit.
u see. if 2dae is my last dae.
den i will hav no regrets.
at least. im still so happy & cheerful on my last dae.
okay well.
days had past.
months had past.
n years had past.
bud memories always remain.
i still can rmb wad i did when im jus 3 years old.
so well for now.
many ppl had wanted to turn back time.
cos of regrets.. etc.
bud.. should i realli regret?
i should b content & happy.. that it happened.
that it was once my happiest daes..
well.. many times of dis daes..
i still tot of how good life was when im still a kid.
bud .. i jus took it for granted somehow.
i miss those great times.
i miss my old home so much.
frens come and go..
bud i do think..
friendship is a better investment actually..
ive great frens that i felt so fortunate.
those great frens that helped mi thru my bad times.
those great frens who had touched my heart deeply.
n those great frens.. who never gave up hope on mi.
for such..
im content of my family..
even though.. i hope to hav a sis earlier on.
ive gt a great mom that im realli proud of.
ive got a great dad that never gives up on his family.
yup. i still gt moi 2 beloved brothers.
im so fortunate of that.
really.
u see. my heart melts when im wif my loved ones.
mum was admitted to tts earlier on ..
i misses her so much during her stay there.
talking on de phone melts my entire heart.
her voices made my eyes go teary.
till den. i know.
i loved my mum so much.
much more den anyone else on earth.
as such.. everything goes by feeling.
april fool is cuming soon.
well.. i nearly ended myself 2 years ago.
lots of thoughts cuming thru..
2 years ago. those r de incidents that turned mi strong.
as such. my tears was much less watery now.
as i used to be a cry baby since young.
thats y. i think ive aged.
forgivness is my best policy.
ive forgave ppl whom i tot i would never ever forgive.
i forgived someone who broke my heart so much.
i forgived someone who is the only one who had beat mi when young.
i forgived someone who lied to mi so many many times.
dis r de 3 ppl whom ive realli hate for my 17 years of live.
n surprisingly..
dis 3 ppl are the ones that r close to my heart.
n i do believe.
ppl will changed for the better..
thats y.. theres de 2nd chance.
n for now.
i jus hope. that i could really let go..
my mind & heart is not cooperating at all.
its my heart which wans to stay on..
im sorry to say dis.
i need time.
was always wondering..
should i had gone back to work last aug?
seems like sakae is my trouble spreader..
bud no matter wad.
i shall update my next decision when de management changed.
n it seems..
none r encouraging mi to continue.
mum wan mi work less.or rather jus quit.
frens telling mi to stop too.
n yea. wa was so worried for mi when im workin.
so anyone encouragin mi to stay?
onli sherrie n winnie i think.
2.49am..
im still so awake.
i wanted to tell u so much.
that i realli misses u loads..
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Miss You
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