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im jus so glad to have my sweetest boy around. even when im feeling so sucky down due to work and upcoming studies' lessons. he can easily brighten me up with his ways. i love my boyfriend. : my anti-depression drug <3 Miss You @ |5/29/2008 11:28:00 PM| Tuesday, May 27, 2008
its final. ive decided to take up de course. even though ive submitted the forms. i still felt uneasy abt it. it still sads me whenever i look at my calendar. my upcoming birthday week is bombarded with lessons. In fact, ive 5 lessons straight for that week. omgness. its so chui lar. and until this very moment. im still feeling so uncomfortable abt the decision made. and my days are numbered. 7 more days to de 2.25 years of torture. i think its gonna be chui-er then those guys serving NS. haix. seriously, im feeling so sad abt this and that. i think i gonna lose the "happiness balance" once my lesson starts. the balance over.. 1)family 2)career 3)money 4)friends 5)my sweetest boy. i so feel like crying. whenever i thought over the days if im having lessons. i have to wake up @7.30 go for work. ends @ 6pm. rush for lesson @ 7pm. ends lesson @ 10pm. reach home @10.45 pm. worth it? Miss You @ |5/27/2008 11:38:00 PM| Sunday, May 25, 2008
i recieved a reply from sim. they accepted me. bud ive to complete de 3 month preparatory course 1st. which starts on 4th june. and im so taken back when i browse thru the timetable. ive 4 lessons on average per week. sometimes up to 5 times. >.<" and it runs from 7-10pm or 2-5/6pm on weekends. so now. im in a dilemma. haix. i dunno wanna take up de course anot. event hough ive filled up de contract and the reply form. i really wanna further my studies. bud den... my 1st concern is . im so scared of failing. im so troubled by the consequence if i really fail. wasting money and time. as for my 2nd concern. is nick. haix. i think i would be happier if sim rejected me. i was back from batam happily. and now im faced with such a decision. and im now still in a daze. whether yes/no. what a tough decision. my brain jus stopped dead. Miss You @ |5/25/2008 10:55:00 PM| Saturday, May 24, 2008
i think i gave up hope on sim application. ive yet to receive a reply from them. its jus so so. chui~!. well. looking from another angle. time might jus be finally right. my superly nice wj sent me an email on his updates. lol. to speak the fact. im so used to working @broadway and everything. that i somehow or rather. "place" him aside. haha. its been so long since ive last heard from him. and till den. yeap. everyone is busy with their stuffs. bud im jus glad. he is living well (: and yesh! happy birthday uncle!! (: may u blessed with all the happy returns! arhh.. im jus being random. lol. i so love my baby danielle <3 Miss You @ |5/24/2008 01:06:00 AM| Wednesday, May 21, 2008
its still as nice seeing my those crazy/rubbish classmates. haha. bud i seriously hate the weather! damn 34.c and i think i nearly gt a stroke. had de headache for the entire day. went vivo.kim gary to dinner our celebration. lol. and it so happen. my sniffy boyfriend passed me the mosquito repellent spray when we walked pass sakae. lol. cos ive been getting bites all over my body. its so serious that ive de intention of seeing my doctor. and the bottle seems so cute la! HAHAHA. its a children anti mosquito spray! meant mainly for infants and children. lol. bud hack. its very thoughtful of him (: alright. i shall upload some pics 2moro. im so dead tired already. and i shall look forward to 2moro's work. loves. Miss You @ |5/21/2008 11:23:00 PM| Tuesday, May 20, 2008
lol. finally. 2moro is the day : Graduation (: back to my desk. and talking abt it. QQ wanna have a massive change. he wants to sit at my current place >.<" i gonna grab my desk tight. and not gonna move anywhere. lol. work gives me those yawns. O.O aiya. jus leave the stuff as it is now. im so tired to think abt it. even though my financial status are kinda tight. bud im happy with what i have. life is short. so better treasure it. and i jus cant hold back my laughter. on my sniff sniff boyfriend. =D oh right. he still blame me for catching a cold. hahahaha. finally. his turn to fall sick =X im so evilly rubbish* Miss You @ |5/20/2008 10:00:00 PM| Sunday, May 18, 2008
jus lazing around. lol. bud hack. it was mainly due to de fact i needa save $$. so i not realli into hanging out dis days. its kinda terrible that ive onli ard $115 to spend on myself. that is my salary minus $600 for my study fees. minus another $200 for mummy. $50 for my endowment plan. $50 for my transportation. $150 for my food supplies. and minus another $9 of insurance cover and hp bills. im left with onli $ 106. to be exact. >.<" credit card payments seems so helly for me . haix. im so looking into other alternatives. for the extra income. its seriously so impt of saving for the future. really. im not broke. its jus the fact. that im bomebarded wif burdens,commitments that im kind of out of breath. ive been surfing ard for investment plans. damn. i need the 21 years old mark . deposit accounts bearing higher interest, like the step up account. tap & save.. etc. and also those currency types. unit trusts and blar blar. saving alone isnt enuff. investments are essential. starts young. thats the point (: and ppl have been commenting abt the no. of plastic i have in my wallet. lol. i jus received one yesterday. UOB's NOW card. its jus a replacement of my current UOB acc. red in colour. bud full of discounts. lol. cathay tix @ $6 again. and free popcorn for everypair of tix purchased. how interesting! and it acts as an EZ-LINK too. jus like the citibank tap&save/SMART. lol. very nice. and back to back. fully revitalised my body today. its always so nice to spend some time to relax. to have some time alone. yell it out. theres much activities up in the calendar. its time to party ppl (: Miss You @ |5/18/2008 11:23:00 PM| Wednesday, May 14, 2008
bud hack, QQ still mentioned abt susuki's stalled engine >.<" back to back. it has been a drastic period since my april month end payroll. was quite relief that everything is back to normal again. returned my connection, fixed my computer. etc. bud the no. 16th is cuming again. payroll part 1 for the month of may. n yeap. thanks those lovely ones for the concern (: it was so contagious that everyone in my family took turn to fall sick. more and more ppl are falling sick & taking MC back in my office. even boss wants me to take a half day off to rest. lol. - to stop spreading the sickness. arks. finally im kicking good. im adapting well at the office. everyday theres different scenario for me to tackle. my section chiefs are quite nice too. offered me jackets as ive left mine back @ home. and my AOM drove me ard for lunch (: always laughing at each other for stupid stuffs. lol. ohyup. i so loved my 2 mummys okay! (: i got my real mummy a pair of lovely pearl earrings and knowing that my 2nd mummy is so rich and has everything. i got her a very cute hello kitty balloon!! HAHA. and a nice lunch @ ajisan. haha. on a final note. and in true fact. its always so hard to find time together. but im suddenly so excited abt the upcoming batam trip with nick. lol. our seafood! seafood! (: yesh. ive a very cute boyfriend actually <3 Miss You @ |5/14/2008 09:27:00 PM| Friday, May 09, 2008
cos im too contagious. ive been spreading the illness around and more ppl are falling sick with MCs. if ive no payroll on hand, i would well be resting at home too. and seriously, im superly uproared by the fact with my internet connection. cancelled my connection and still wants me to do online application. lets see next week.. if still dun reconnect. damn. i gonna confront boss abt this matter. >.<" and im so surprising shocked to know that my colleagues thought i went out with QQ. when we seemed to left the office together. lol. it jus seems so funny to me in the end. its like an earthquake in textile centre. bud seriously, we are still bickering with each other abt susuki and cherry QQ. sounds idiot. bud hack. bud i wish my 6th sense arnt right this time round. we are jus quarrable colleagues . thank goodness ive mat mat 2day. so at least, today's work is fine. and ive decided what to get for my 2 mummys (: arks. im still sick. and have no much intentions of going out. spreading de illness to even more ppl. Miss You @ |5/09/2008 11:44:00 PM| Tuesday, May 06, 2008
im always trying my best to overcome the negative inputs. bud hack. everyone has their limits. i felt so hopeless of the stuffs happening around. plus the sickness im enduring, i dont think i will make it this time.. im so seriously stressed out. with piles and piles of workload ive to clear. im so feeling like im in debt with those work assigned. im so feeling breathless. im so coughing so badly that my back aches. im so thinking that my bronchitis will get worst and lead to asthma. im so feeling biten up by the fact of you people. im so embedded with tons of insecurities. once again. i saw dr.insomnia chasing from behind. and dr.depression running towards me. even those medicine cant put me thru a good night sleep. forgoodnesssake.you made me so wanna cry my eyes out.. you made me so wanna distant everyone. and you made me so wanna say goodbye. Miss You @ |5/06/2008 08:20:00 PM| Monday, May 05, 2008
damn it. ive turned pretty sickish after my weekend. My life always seems so shaky whenever i fall sick. u see. from january until now. had 1) salmonella virus. 2) bronchitis attack. 3) normal sickness. 4) gall baldder infection. and now. im back to no.3 i wonder when will i get more immuned to illnesses. see the point? i sicked till sian le. even QQ mentioned that im a lousy susuki. worst den his cherry QQ. lol. and im feeling kinda despair. having the tendancy of thinking too much. and im pretty sicked of the situations happening around. sometimes i really wonder if i could get so sicked and pass away. -> poppo getting old.. the papers abt marry up & marry down strikes me hard. True love seems so far-fectched out of the sudden. Sensing the stuffs happening around. I wonder if i will lose you in days to come. imprintnity, it never happens. *prayers. Miss You @ |5/05/2008 09:08:00 PM| Friday, May 02, 2008
if im given jus one more day to live, no matter how much matters are brooding me. i would still spend my last day to the fullest. so . the point is. actually, ive tried all means not to think so much. tried my best to let nature take its pace. and no retards/fucktards to spoil my emotions. as ive realise, i will be a happier person if my life goes in a simpler directions. thank god im not a perfectionist. as no one's life or person is perfect to catch the limelight. life's never easy or smooth sailing. i jus felt so accomplished whenever i thought of my past. i never knew i would live through my secondary days. it was so bad. it was such a trauma. so much saddness. so much pains. ive went through. every setbacks adds to the growing point. under depression for more than half a year, everything jus seems so far fetched from being happy again. everything. as for now. people are asking y i took things so easily. ive a simple life. im a happy person. becos i dont ask for much. the more happiness you desire. the more unsatisfied you are. i m content of my simple life. as im always counting up my happiness, my blessings (: and so ive realised and everyone agreed. ive changed. i wish everyone happiness. truely. Miss You @ |5/02/2008 11:39:00 PM| |