I wish fer a pair of wings~ to fly across de ocean.. jus to see u...

Moved (:

2009-08-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

I've moved ..

to here (:

The painful U-Turn

2009-04-08T23:17:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i thought im halfway back to normal.
When i thought i found a happier me back at Raffles City.

Im so wrong when i start surfing around the net.
I took a sharp & painful U-Turn .
I just couldn't stop thinking of the past.
I couldn't stop my heart from aching again.

I need a heart therapy.
Ive tried all means. Be it shopping , feasting , mahjong-ing , sleeping.

I thought ive moved on,
but im so wrong..

U brought me so much happiness over the past few years.
And u left with everything ive always cherished.
I hate it to say this. But i truely miss you ..

I'm finally back (:

2009-03-23T19:21:00.002+08:00

Im back to blog again (:

And so much have since changed.
To be exact , is everything.

I'm back to the square one.
Back to my lovely girlfriends' side.
The transition is truely tough.
I never imagine it could be so heartbreaking.

And somehow or rather. I'm lost in this big mess.
I hate myself for being so reluctant.
I hate myself for being so naive.

I've never once sees it as no happy ending.
I've never once regret of the decisions ive made.

Damn. it just sucks so much.
as i just couldn't get you off my mind.

-Bleeding Love

i wish everything gonna last.

2008-10-03T23:47:00.002+08:00

finally, ive the time to do some updating (:

loads of stuffs happened.
there is meihui's hse warming and birthday celebration.
drinking session.
lessons.
outstations.
mahjong win ! $50+
some walk walk ard (u ppl gonna laugh @ me again)
F1 sight seeing.
and yesh!
the JB trip with nick & his friends on hari raya.

and it so happened. 2day is the 1st day i reached home straight after office since the start of my lessons.
due to those events, i havent touch my tutorials any bit.
ive not started my assignment as well.
very chui.
so..
will make full use of my whole weekend to pay back. lol.

even though im so so exhausted with all the activities.
so stressed out due to work and studies.
bud yeap.
so glad to meet up my bunch of girlfriends.
half of my mahjong kakis.
YUP.
and my cutest boyfriend (:

i wish everything gonna lasts
realized that each meeting up dosent comes easily.
sharing loads of love around.
loves <3

of all the reasons..

2008-09-14T12:14:00.002+08:00

wow. today is already my last day of freedom .. school starts tomoro (:
been hack busy with gatherings.. appointments.. etc.
orientation cum supper session on the 1st!
catching up dinner with alice and mat @jacks on the4th! (:
there was the great POTLUCK session @ sentosa last sunday.. with my lovely sisters and 2 man. haha.
j & c drinking session @ mansion on the 10th!
enlisting dinner for ben cum poly gathering on the 11th!
sherrie's birthday chalet which was jus yesterday (:

plus those little comfort time spent with nick <3

everything dosent comes that easily.
i'm amazed with the level of faith ive in you.
still enjoy the long walks under the stars..
be it by the cars, or by the sea..
i love your presence.
as the reason is love (:

Free (:

2008-08-30T00:17:00.003+08:00

yes! finally im out of HR dept.
a fresh new start from 1st sept . so new that my boss is still thinking of a designation name for me.
so yup. im relieved for the decision (:

just sent wj + wa off.
i think this is the 1st time i sent them off over the years..
they always secretly came back and left with just a note.
things are definitely different now. as each of us had changed.

and i still gonna take note that ive 2 weeks of holiday left!
appointments,gatherings,chalet,activities lining up before my 15th.
life is as good as it seems currently.
and just as glad when i could click with other colleagues well.
(:

and ive decided to spend my entire weekend watching tom and jerry cartoon!
hahaha. since nick is back home @ malaysia.
i might as well concentrate on this set of vcds borrowed from ladyboss =D

of all cute animals,people,stuffs around.
ive the cutest boyfriend (:

tune of happier notes

2008-08-24T01:54:00.003+08:00

life after exams is so much better (:
i lost 2 kg due to exams.

and i gain it back after those sumptuous dinners after my last paper.
so. back to square one.
one big mess when i returned to work.
accepted it.
and i so gonna fight the war.

wj came over and we really talked a lot.
he is such a persuader.
conversation filled with inspirations and encouragement.
just something different spoken by someone who runs his family business with so little experience of working as an employee.
years had passed. and yes. everyone had changed.
and ive decided that since ive not much to loss.
i shall fight to the end.
so at least. somehow, he managed to persuade me to continue working.

with so much to encounter and endure. i'm not gonna be weak and just lie low.
they might have underestimated me with a young age with less experience or whatsoever.
matilda had left. and so i gonna stand strong by myself.
i know its never easy.
bud hack. i wont just give up so easily.

and aside from work.
im on a 3 week break until 14th sept.
theres so much catching up with friends and family.

***
and im just as glad.
that all my worries are just worries.
we have to consider the fact that we no longer colleagues.
no longer seeing each other for like 5 days a week.
we have to keep it to the point that we are both working and
understandings and trust are always in our minds.
its never easy when theres so much obstacles upfront.
off to the tune of happier notes..
<3 to my sweetest boy (:

the sudden return.

2008-08-17T02:09:00.002+08:00

infact i wasnt feeling great these few days.
the so many happenings .
plus theres the bridging exams.
i could hardly count my heart beat.

as for the most heart-warming note, wj and wa are coming back in less than a days time (:
thats probably the most shocking email i recieved for the week.
i thought they will be back on the 31st. and i thought that only wj is flying back.
and yea. i havent seen them for erm. year/years!

once again.
i found myself on a roller coaster ride.

till den.
aftermyexams

sick cat

2008-08-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

wj was asking if ever i will regret in choosing this path of life.
surprisingly. i said no.
lol. mainly becos. its just how one sees abt his own life.

i think ive everything from everywhere.
theres one good news that im kind of relief. which is .. im moving out of HR kinda soon.
im infact starting helping out boss's projects and @ the same time doing the routine HR work.
that explains why im superly busy @ work these days.
yesh, everyone will sees me differently when im out of the bloodly hell dept.
but seriously, i dont think ive the extra energy and time to care about what others said behind my back.
its no longer impt to me.
career advancement is the way to go.

so actually. things are starting to picking up.
peace @ home.
lessons are ending soon.
work is getting more excited.
with colleagues that dotes on me.
class is getting more rubbish/crazy/entertaining.
met up my so lovely girlfriends.
and.
yesh. i love spending time with my boy (:

bud the negative thing.
yesh. my mahjong kakis!
arha. i think i gonna date them out very soon. lol.

just when i tot im over wif my sickness.
im so terribly wrong.
im an official sick cat. -adopted by nick ong (:

a blessing. definitely.

2008-07-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

Somehow. its really a blessing to be doted by my SH (:
esp after a day of rubbish @ work.
politics are getting on my nerves and boss was so pissed off of a missing cheque.
>.<"

bud yea. im not gonna take it so badly.
thats life.
and the thing to cheer me up abit.
my SH cooked curry fish head for me (:
he knew ive always wanted to eat the dish.
and it so happened that the fish was duper fresh today. haha.

i din realise i was so pampered until chubby mentioned abt it days ago.
HAHA. oh yea. im in fact enjoying life back @ office. and also constantly adding the pounds on =D
and i jus thought of my sakae days, those chef and cooks always cooking up stuff for me . lol.
i seriously miss the fried rice + ribeye + any dishes they came up themselves. hhaa.
i wish ive the time to visit them. haven seen them for some time already.

+
ive quite nice classmates ard actually. (:
yest. night chill out @ timbre was really a gd chance to destress
oh c'mon. i really love wines .

till den.
i still must live on.

a journey.

2008-07-20T22:53:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i just wonder.

when colleagues thought of me differently.
i wish im not in HR.
ppl felt jealous/unhappy whenever i finish my work faster than them.
pissed off when im lunching with my SH/boss
they have such mentality that im so disappointed with.
what should i do?

bud anyway. in the end.
FOODIE save the day (:

had a dinner buffet@ novotel on tue with some colleagues.
nice food + ambience. bud few variety.
since the day i join broadway. ive been buffeting @ hotels now and then.
i know its sinful. but "it" makes me happy (:

and then. i finally met up my boy after weeks of busyness.
nice food + booboocake + red cliff ..
booboocake was definitely a bonus. when im just playing ard nydc and nick drag me in to take away a slice of it. lol.
and still. enjoyed the long walk under the moonlight, from bugis to orchard.
im just so glad that during this busy period, he is still as thoughtful as ever.
and yeap. still as cute as he used to be (:
thinking back the happy days @ work years ago. a jouney we had walked through till now.
im fortunate to have met him <3
lol. i dunno if my lovely girlfriends have dump me out of the "xinfu board".
haha. arh. i gonna be back when holiday comes (:

and speaking of it.
sunday - lovely girfriends' birthday gathering (:
i miss them so much . haven seen dem for a super long time.

and theres gonna be an upcoming zoo zoo trip!!!
u ppl gonna be shocked if ive to mention who im going with. lol.
come ask me if u are curious =D

and of course. BLUE JAZZ (:

i gonna stay motivated with all these.
haha. and yes. ive to dig time out to spend with nick. no matter how packed my schedule is.
busy is just an excuse.
and love is the reason.

going insane.

2008-07-16T00:02:00.002+08:00

well.
i was feeling real glad that my wj is coming back soon! (:
even though there wasnt any specific date in the email.
bud hack. i shall just look forward to the day u arrive..

i shall off my mobile soon,
i kept getting calls and msg in the middle of the night from those random people.
so random that yest my SH sms me regarding a worker's work permit.
i was so dazed till i fall back to sleep w/o giving him a reply.
lol.

as everything starts to settle down.
im starting to feel guilty of how things are @ the moment.
i really felt bad abt it.
it seems. my life is still in a roller-coaster mood.
my social's life was like the US economy.
its jus so chui.

somehow. i wish i could fly.

ventolin's tremor.

2008-07-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

oh.. ho..
jus another idea of blogging while @ de office.
the days are still passing by so quickly that ive lost track of the dates.
and omgness. it was already mid month.

weeks after weeks of lessons.
still. i found no much time for myself. onli until yesterday that ive the energy and time to switch on my tv. watching the news and some dramas.
bud hack. i left my project undone still! =X
i think chubby gonna scold me if he is reading this post. lol...

and yesh. i dunno y im falling sick so frequent.
in addition, the medicine for asthma is kinda horrible.
the side effects are so bad, which includes :
1) tremor
2) increasing heart rate
3) fainting spell
so much so that even the tablet could subside my difficulty in breathing, i still have to control the side effects .
in the end. it makes no much difference..

bud hack. this week is much better. jus 4 days of lessons.
and yesh. the days are passing by so fast and by then,
its always so that difficult to have time together.
and ive not meet up my boy for so so long.
and i really miss him jus so much <3

There is no balance.

2008-07-11T00:03:00.002+08:00

A choice means a choice.

Back to back. actually im feeling much better after a MC rest on tuesday.
it was the ultimate decision when i tot im fainting on monday's class.
Bud hack. its really really a god damn good rest (:
i slept all the way after returning home from clinic @ 9am to 7pm. and sleep again from 11.30pm to 7.30am.
To a point. it was another round of bronhchitis with more hand shivers.
I think it was jus a matter of time when my doctor gonna diagnosed me of having acute asthma.

And somehow or rather.
i think i ought to give myself a "break" .. im giving myself too much stress and pressure.
its jus so hard to find the "balance point"
its even harder when i myslef had kinda high expectations of "ME".
i jus want stuffs to be done fast. jus wanna clear my workload.

Sometimes i just wonder..
guys of my age are usually still stucked in NS.
Ladies are usually enjoying their prime life .. be it working or just purely studying full time.
"shiok life" . the phrase to describe it.
And since. ive stepped into this hectic path. i must move on (:
Ive made this choice. A path to have better opportunities and better career propects.
It means a choice.

And of the balance. i wish my boy could understands me.
jus like he always does <3

depressed.

2008-07-06T01:15:00.001+08:00

im feeling jus so terribly depressed.
over everything.

nth seems to happy me up recently.
.
.
.

give me a day to cry.

life.

2008-07-05T00:03:00.002+08:00

i realli tried hard.
to have enuff time. bud i terribly failed.

workplace had somehow turned into a war.
im in de center line. and i gonna get killed anytime.
my dept seems so fake that i always wonder if im working in a wax museum.
and seriously.
im not being sentimental,emotional or sensitive to broke down.
it jus so happened.
so i guess. somehow it reached a point that i gonna fight back whatever stuffs that are against me.
and fear not. i wun stay long in de HR dept.

and everything jus not coming my way.
-phone sent for repair.
-falling sick. again.

haix.
tats life.

its never easy.

2008-06-25T23:58:00.003+08:00

i was so busy with the stuffs going on, until im like totally dumping my blog aside.
surprising, my classmate (our grp mr chubby) was the one who reminded me. that my blog still exist.
lol.

what a tough life im going through.
bud anyway. had a pleasant birthday spent with nick (:
thanks all my lovely friends who sent their wishes over. be it in spore or from overseas.
greatly appreciated (: with all the lunches,dinners..
and even though it wasnt a blast compared to previous years.
haha. bud i shall be content that ive nick this time round <3

and it has been a hectic week since.
2 more lessons to go. ARKK!
i wish to have 8 days a week seriously. i jus wish to have more time.
im really sorry if im neglecting u ppl dis days.
i so miss my lovely sisters. sushi friends. mahjong kakis. my 2 dearest carebears.
my social life seems to have flip upside down.
its kinda sad to realise this.

bud. oh yeap. im meeting my mahjong kakis this sat.
and im really looking forward to!

jus a note to tell my 2 carebears. im really living healthyly.
haha. ive been so obedient to drink orange juices everyday.

phew. im not gonna revise anything. im tired.
thats it. i shall find time to blog regulary. i promise (:

take care all my lovely friends.
*hugs*

carousel (:

2008-06-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

life is still as hectic as ever.
bud hack. @ least. ive managed to balance some stuffs out.
school is alright. so at least i found de fact that a whole bunch of us living near each other.
having kakis to cab home or some kind soul to drive us back.

was so dead busy wif everything.
till den i nearly forgot abt my upcoming birthday.
whopas.
i dunno whether to be sad or happy.
its neither here or there.
jus the feeling of imbalanced . lol.
its never easy to juggle work and studies.
family.friends.relationships.

bud
im jus as glad to have nick around.
always so cute and understanding.
lol.

and yeap!
CAROUSEL. here i come! (:

slap me.

2008-06-12T21:28:00.002+08:00

ive realised how fortunate to have such nice frens who took the trouble to email me almost daily for de past few years.
the distance counts. and im way too grateful for that.
it was such a moment of realisation while im in a meeting days ago..
it really slaps me hard with this. while they are talking abt the long distance relationships.
i jus felt so bad abt everything.
that ive took all these somehow for granted.

and seriously, it has been a difficult period for me since my lesson starts.
ive been questioning myself repeatedly.
and i think im kind way off too selfish.
even jane wun make dis kind of a decision.
slaps me hard again.
):

im selfish to have make de decision of studying now.
i really sucks.

hmmm

2008-06-05T22:30:00.002+08:00

loads of stuffs are happening.
and i think im starting to drain out.

bud yea. i spent my last weekend pretty well (:
im jus too busy to update days ago.
it was real nice dining out with some of my colleagues @ royalplazahotel.
we had the international buffet!
and i spent my whole sunday with nick.
hahaha. we actually went down ECP to cycle. yup. the 2 seater bike =D
cos till now. i still dunno how to cycle. >.<"
plus the donuting,lagooning and suppering.
lol. i really enjoy my last few days before my lesson starts.
and seriously had a great time with him (:

bud on de negative point.
i fight for my request to end work early .. and ended up in boss room.
my manager hate me to core i tell u.
everyday giving me black faces till now.
he gonna think that im a very very sturborn worker, cos he had previously rejected my request.
bud im seriously too sturborn to give up, so i went to talk with my boss instead.
boss approved my request in the end. thats y my manger is still furious at me. lol.

bud hack. whats done is done.
lesson had started. quite a friendly class i think. with lotsa professions.
i gonna endure this schedule till aug.
and i mus work hard [:)

right. do take care.
all my lovely friends (:

my anti depression drug

2008-05-29T23:28:00.002+08:00

seriously,
im jus so glad to have my sweetest boy around.
even when im feeling so sucky down due to work and upcoming studies' lessons.
he can easily brighten me up with his ways.

i love my boyfriend.
: my anti-depression drug <3

how much is the worth?

2008-05-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

alrights.
its final. ive decided to take up de course.
even though ive submitted the forms.
i still felt uneasy abt it.
it still sads me whenever i look at my calendar.
my upcoming birthday week is bombarded with lessons.
In fact, ive 5 lessons straight for that week.
omgness. its so chui lar.

and until this very moment.
im still feeling so uncomfortable abt the decision made.
and my days are numbered.
7 more days to de 2.25 years of torture.
i think its gonna be chui-er then those guys serving NS.
haix.
seriously, im feeling so sad abt this and that.
i think i gonna lose the "happiness balance" once my lesson starts.
the balance over..
1)family
2)career
3)money
4)friends
5)my sweetest boy.

i so feel like crying.
whenever i thought over the days if im having lessons.
i have to wake up @7.30
go for work. ends @ 6pm.
rush for lesson @ 7pm.
ends lesson @ 10pm.
reach home @10.45 pm.

worth it?

a choice.

2008-05-25T22:55:00.003+08:00

finally. and finally.
i recieved a reply from sim.
they accepted me. bud ive to complete de 3 month preparatory course 1st.
which starts on 4th june.
and im so taken back when i browse thru the timetable.
ive 4 lessons on average per week. sometimes up to 5 times. >.<"
and it runs from 7-10pm or 2-5/6pm on weekends.

so now.
im in a dilemma.
haix. i dunno wanna take up de course anot. event hough ive filled up de contract and the reply form.
i really wanna further my studies. bud den...
my 1st concern is . im so scared of failing. im so troubled by the consequence if i really fail. wasting money and time.
as for my 2nd concern. is nick.

haix. i think i would be happier if sim rejected me.
i was back from batam happily. and now im faced with such a decision.
and im now still in a daze. whether yes/no.
what a tough decision.

my brain jus stopped dead.

baby danielle

2008-05-24T01:06:00.002+08:00

okay. so much so of the waiting.
i think i gave up hope on sim application.
ive yet to receive a reply from them. its jus so so. chui~!.

well.
looking from another angle. time might jus be finally right.
my superly nice wj sent me an email on his updates. lol.
to speak the fact. im so used to working @broadway and everything.
that i somehow or rather. "place" him aside. haha.
its been so long since ive last heard from him.
and till den. yeap. everyone is busy with their stuffs.
bud im jus glad. he is living well (:

and yesh!
happy birthday uncle!! (:
may u blessed with all the happy returns!

arhh.. im jus being random.
lol. i so love my baby danielle <3

children anti mosquito spray.

2008-05-21T23:23:00.002+08:00

oh! happy graduation! (:
its still as nice seeing my those crazy/rubbish classmates. haha.
bud i seriously hate the weather! damn 34.c
and i think i nearly gt a stroke. had de headache for the entire day.

went vivo.kim gary to dinner our celebration. lol.
and it so happen.
my sniffy boyfriend passed me the mosquito repellent spray when we walked pass sakae. lol.
cos ive been getting bites all over my body. its so serious that ive de intention of seeing my doctor.
and the bottle seems so cute la! HAHAHA. its a children anti mosquito spray!
meant mainly for infants and children. lol.
bud hack. its very thoughtful of him (:

alright. i shall upload some pics 2moro.
im so dead tired already.
and i shall look forward to 2moro's work.

loves.

my desk!

2008-05-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

i tried to clear everything on hand .
lol. finally. 2moro is the day : Graduation (:

back to my desk.
and talking abt it. QQ wanna have a massive change.
he wants to sit at my current place >.<"
i gonna grab my desk tight. and not gonna move anywhere. lol.
work gives me those yawns. O.O

aiya. jus leave the stuff as it is now.
im so tired to think abt it.
even though my financial status are kinda tight. bud im happy with what i have.
life is short. so better treasure it.
and i jus cant hold back my laughter. on my sniff sniff boyfriend. =D
oh right. he still blame me for catching a cold.
hahahaha.
finally. his turn to fall sick =X

im so evilly rubbish*

trust. me.

2008-05-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

i was kinda amazed of the no. of hrs i spent @ home.
jus lazing around. lol.
bud hack. it was mainly due to de fact i needa save $$.
so i not realli into hanging out dis days.
its kinda terrible that ive onli ard $115 to spend on myself.
that is my salary minus $600 for my study fees.
minus another $200 for mummy.
$50 for my endowment plan.
$50 for my transportation.
$150 for my food supplies.
and minus another $9 of insurance cover and hp bills.
im left with onli $ 106. to be exact.
>.<"
credit card payments seems so helly for me .
haix. im so looking into other alternatives. for the extra income.
its seriously so impt of saving for the future. really.
im not broke. its jus the fact. that im bomebarded wif burdens,commitments that im kind of out of breath.
ive been surfing ard for investment plans. damn. i need the 21 years old mark .
deposit accounts bearing higher interest, like the step up account. tap & save.. etc.
and also those currency types.
unit trusts and blar blar.
saving alone isnt enuff. investments are essential.
starts young. thats the point (:

and ppl have been commenting abt the no. of plastic i have in my wallet.
lol. i jus received one yesterday. UOB's NOW card. its jus a replacement of my current UOB acc.
red in colour. bud full of discounts. lol.
cathay tix @ $6 again. and free popcorn for everypair of tix purchased. how interesting!
and it acts as an EZ-LINK too. jus like the citibank tap&save/SMART.
lol. very nice.

and back to back.
fully revitalised my body today.
its always so nice to spend some time to relax.
to have some time alone.

yell it out. theres much activities up in the calendar.
its time to party ppl (:

a true fact.

2008-05-14T21:27:00.003+08:00

oh finally. im somehow recovered from my weeks of sickness.
bud hack, QQ still mentioned abt susuki's stalled engine >.<"

back to back. it has been a drastic period since my april month end payroll.
was quite relief that everything is back to normal again.
returned my connection, fixed my computer. etc.
bud the no. 16th is cuming again.
payroll part 1 for the month of may.

n yeap. thanks those lovely ones for the concern (:
it was so contagious that everyone in my family took turn to fall sick.
more and more ppl are falling sick & taking MC back in my office.
even boss wants me to take a half day off to rest. lol.
- to stop spreading the sickness.

arks. finally im kicking good.
im adapting well at the office. everyday theres different scenario for me to tackle.
my section chiefs are quite nice too. offered me jackets as ive left mine back @ home.
and my AOM drove me ard for lunch (:
always laughing at each other for stupid stuffs. lol.

ohyup.
i so loved my 2 mummys okay! (:
i got my real mummy a pair of lovely pearl earrings
and knowing that my 2nd mummy is so rich and has everything.
i got her a very cute hello kitty balloon!! HAHA.
and a nice lunch @ ajisan.

haha.
on a final note. and in true fact.
its always so hard to find time together.
but im suddenly so excited abt the upcoming batam trip with nick.
lol. our seafood! seafood! (:
yesh. ive a very cute boyfriend actually <3

susuki.

2008-05-09T23:44:00.003+08:00

I think my company gonna banned me soon.
cos im too contagious.
ive been spreading the illness around and more ppl are falling sick with MCs.
if ive no payroll on hand, i would well be resting at home too.
and seriously, im superly uproared by the fact with my internet connection.
cancelled my connection and still wants me to do online application.
lets see next week..
if still dun reconnect. damn. i gonna confront boss abt this matter.
>.<"

and im so surprising shocked to know that my colleagues thought i went out with QQ.
when we seemed to left the office together.
lol. it jus seems so funny to me in the end.
its like an earthquake in textile centre.
bud seriously, we are still bickering with each other abt susuki and cherry QQ.
sounds idiot. bud hack.
bud i wish my 6th sense arnt right this time round.
we are jus quarrable colleagues .

thank goodness ive mat mat 2day.
so at least, today's work is fine.

and ive decided what to get for my 2 mummys (:

arks. im still sick.
and have no much intentions of going out.
spreading de illness to even more ppl.

again and again.

2008-05-06T20:20:00.003+08:00

i admit im feeling very depressed at this very moment.
im always trying my best to overcome the negative inputs. bud hack.
everyone has their limits.
i felt so hopeless of the stuffs happening around.
plus the sickness im enduring, i dont think i will make it this time..
im so seriously stressed out. with piles and piles of workload ive to clear.
im so feeling like im in debt with those work assigned.
im so feeling breathless.
im so coughing so badly that my back aches.
im so thinking that my bronchitis will get worst and lead to asthma.
im so feeling biten up by the fact of you people.
im so embedded with tons of insecurities.

once again.
i saw dr.insomnia chasing from behind.
and dr.depression running towards me.
even those medicine cant put me thru a good night sleep.

forgoodnesssake.you made me so wanna cry my eyes out..
you made me so wanna distant everyone.
and you made me so wanna say goodbye.

a week of MC.

2008-05-05T21:08:00.002+08:00

I gave myself a week of MC.
damn it. ive turned pretty sickish after my weekend.
My life always seems so shaky whenever i fall sick.

u see. from january until now.
had 1) salmonella virus.
2) bronchitis attack.
3) normal sickness.
4) gall baldder infection.
and now. im back to no.3
i wonder when will i get more immuned to illnesses.

see the point? i sicked till sian le.
even QQ mentioned that im a lousy susuki. worst den his cherry QQ. lol.
and im feeling kinda despair. having the tendancy of thinking too much.
and im pretty sicked of the situations happening around.
sometimes i really wonder if i could get so sicked and pass away.
-> poppo getting old..

the papers abt marry up & marry down strikes me hard.
True love seems so far-fectched out of the sudden.

Sensing the stuffs happening around.
I wonder if i will lose you in days to come.
imprintnity, it never happens.
*prayers.

simple makes beautiful happiness

2008-05-02T23:39:00.003+08:00

i believe that.
if im given jus one more day to live, no matter how much matters are brooding me.
i would still spend my last day to the fullest.
so . the point is.
actually, ive tried all means not to think so much.
tried my best to let nature take its pace.
and no retards/fucktards to spoil my emotions.
as ive realise, i will be a happier person if my life goes in a simpler directions.
thank god im not a perfectionist. as no one's life or person is perfect to catch the limelight.
life's never easy or smooth sailing.
i jus felt so accomplished whenever i thought of my past.
i never knew i would live through my secondary days.
it was so bad. it was such a trauma.
so much saddness. so much pains. ive went through.
every setbacks adds to the growing point.
under depression for more than half a year, everything jus seems so far fetched from being happy again.
everything.

as for now.
people are asking y i took things so easily.
ive a simple life. im a happy person.
becos i dont ask for much.
the more happiness you desire. the more unsatisfied you are.
i m content of my simple life.
as im always counting up my happiness, my blessings (:

and so ive realised and everyone agreed.
ive changed.

i wish everyone happiness. truely.

saturday moveover.

2008-04-27T12:54:00.003+08:00

actually. im really feeling depressed of the stuffs happening at my workplace.
theres was 2 ladies whom i interviewed wif boss & section heads. they cried.
then the cook i interviewed regarding the bonus. he almost shed his tears.
omg. i jus felt so hopeless that he couldnt take back his bonus no matter how hard i fought for it.
its jus so sadding. arks.
and then.
i was stung by mosquitos.
damn. all over my hands! #$%^&*()
im so despaired over these. and QQ said it was becos my danielle has rabbies.
QQ was the boss's son. and we bickered daily on everything >.<"
and then.
i felt so down . after i realised. someone took my pencil w/o my consent.
and its gone. damn it.
haix. very sucky weekdays ive been thru.
with the mosquitoes bites itching me.
decided to drag nick to go for turtle's soup =D
in the end. theres the crocodile meat. frog's leg. plus my turtle soup.
LOL.
and he commented that the 3 creatures are swimming ard in his stomach. haha.

oh yup. we went over to the recently opened kallang leisure mall.
SO MANY LOVELY DOGS OVER THERE!!! (:
they are so seriously cute man.
and clever+obedient.
unlike danielle.
hahaha. i ought to give her some obedient training classes.

so. back to back.
we had our usual walks.
dis time round is from suntec to somerset.
and then to plaza singapura.
n. i exchanged my n95 wf his LG viewty phone.
hahaha. my sacrifice seems so big.

and drawing plans for the upcoming mummy's day.
hahaha. nick has mummy and helen.
and ive mummy and may.
i so gonna plan a shopping trip to get prezzies for our dearest mummys (:

and oh!.
im so looking forward to MAY
theres:
1) 2 public holidays (labour day + vesak day)
2) graduation day! (:
3) mummy's day!!
4) a pending batam trip wif mr nick (:

so. in the end.
my saturday wif my sweetest boy did save me from becoming more sad/despaired/depressed.
thank you <3

m.i.a

2008-04-25T23:09:00.002+08:00

....
im having a very sad week afterall.

the end.

coma.

2008-04-24T20:37:00.003+08:00

well. it got me so bad that negative stuffs had been running thru my mind dis days.
and i think.
i ought to give myself a few slaps.
to really wake me up.

something jus fade away apprantly.
and i dunno why.
isit becos of the usual cycle? of the rubber band. of the waves.?
i became so doubtful of everything.
i felt so despaired out of the sudden.

i know i ought to be understanding.
bud hack. my heart jus played dead.
it jus went into a coma to find a reason. an escape.
i felt so apologetic . as its never easy at all.

in addition. another rich man's son.
damn. y im always so entangled in these situations!.
*collapsed.

even though it went into a coma.
its a reason.and an escape. to miss my sweetest boy <3

anyway. happy 20th birthday to my dearest tu-er !
*cheers*

the shared happiness.

2008-04-21T20:59:00.003+08:00

so i think.
my life is kinda stable @ the very moment.
lol. i cant ask for much i think.
even though work is shaky at times. ive to carry on (:

and ive spent my last week pretty well.
very busy wif bonus & payroll. and den the jb trip wif nick (:
i does agree that we are very rubbish =X
bud yup.

here comes another week.
too bad ive to work dis coming sat. if not there gonna b a zoo outing.
hahaha. bud nvm
ive a gathering session wif my lovely girlfriends dis sunday (:

and on an extra note.
i wanna be a gardener after i retired. haha.
seeing those lovely flowers,trees,plants.
it jus makes me so happy (:

and yesh. things are looking great.
becos in life, we cant be so demanding at everything.
ive learned to accept the fact of this and that.
ive learned to be more understanding of how things goes.
learned that i cant jus want everything to goes in my way.
it can never happened.
oh yea. we gotta be contented of what we have now.

i wish everyone happiness.
sharing loads of love ard.

(:

white & more white (:

2008-04-13T21:52:00.002+08:00

the days/weeks are passing by so fast. that i could hardly catch my breath.
thank god everything is bouncing great (:
payroll again in a few days time.
bud saturday gona be my motivation.
haha. becos i dun needa work.
and it so happens to be nick's off day (:

and ive spent my whole sunday tidying up my room.
everything is spanking clean n white!.

lol.i felt so dumb for de xxth times.
i bought some choco. bud forget to pass to nick.
now my fridge is packed full of chocolates.
>.<"

right den.
take care lovelies <3

of the right way ; of the right thing

2008-04-09T21:32:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i jus wonder if im doing the right thing.
regrets? mayby.
but i don't wish to further it up .

and i wonder, if your comment makes any sense.
im jus so so feeling exhausted.
and u could jus take my breath away. i suppose.

aww..

2008-04-06T00:47:00.003+08:00

well. even though the weather wasnt as good as the normal saturday should goes.
and even though we are having less time together due to the different working hours.
plus de factor that ive been sleeping earlier den ever dis days since ive started working.
bud hack. i still so cherished you and i do think that both of us have been very understanding towards each other.
its a very positive area (:
and you surprised me with a very nice gift <3
i so look forward to our zoo trip. haha.

i thank u for being with me all these while.
im really content with my life right now.
having a loving family, a nice job, a bunch of pretty girlfriends, another bunch of mahjong kakis, caring guy-friends, cute babies + a sweet boyfriend (:

thankyou people!
i so love all of you (:
esp. my mr ong <3

bus 61 terror.

2008-04-04T22:37:00.003+08:00

ohms.
im not being lazy. its purely that im really tired out.
sad to say. im still adjusting to the office hrs.
so. for de past one week.
on monday night. i sleep at 12.30am.
tues. 12am
wed.11.30pm
thur.11pm.
bud. i still so lack of sleep.
arks.

n jus days ago.
imagine de scenario :

i was standing jus beside an old aunty.
de bus brake. and my heels jus step directly onto her foot.
i apologised.
and guess what she responded?
SHE SCREAMED AT ME!
omgness. that really woke me up that morning.
she argued what the use of saying sorry. she dun wan any sorry.
DAMN. that realli fumed me up.
so. i shouted back : DEN WHAT U WAN ME TO DO?
i dun care de stares any more. she is jus being ridiculus.
she jus went on and went.
so i jus keep shooting her back .
" YOU WAN ME TO RETURN YOU A NEW LEG ARH?"
"IF NOT. GET DOWN AND HAIL A TAXI INSTEAD! NO ONE WILL STEP ON U"
. . .
ive been nice not to say any bad words.
we jus argued until at the point. im sicked and tired.
i jus ignored her.
and the driver jus call her to shut up. since ive apologised earlier.
bud den. you know old ppl naggies. she jus went on.
so i jus tune my mp3 to louder volume.

arks.
dun ever let me see her again.
and suey think is she board wif me at the same bus stop.

and as for work.
damn. de payroll thing is kinda killing me.
i wander what my life will become after mat leave me ):
bud seriously. i think my HR dept. is somehow quite nice. lol.
with the 4 angels bullying the HR manager. and theres the ministry of information. HAHA.
so everyday. some of de angels will sneak back snacks from our manager's cupboard. LOL.
its jus HEE HEE HAA HAA session always (:

and ive to collect my ultrasound report 2moro.
bud im kinda lazy to do so.
when ive no work 2moro.

bud seriously. i think wj has been realli sweet.
he listed out the possibilities of the reason why i seems to MIA again dis week.
occasionally online. and when online. i rarely reply. lol.
1) fall sick again.
2) emo again.
3) problems arising.
4) lazy again.
5) tired again.

and he listed out of the way to tackle the top 5 cases.
ahhaha. makes me so LOL. when i hear tt.
you mus have so much free time to think of all these.
bud hack. u brighten me up again (:
i think i should realli made it a point to email u daily during my breaktime =)

and last of all. jus let me have a gd rest! =)

the holiday affair.

2008-03-29T22:57:00.009+08:00

heres some of the photos (:

lol. the twin towers. seriously. its really awesome.
too bad ive no chance of capturing it in de night.
bud hack. ive a modern/hip god-mummy =D

inside the tower! haha. de 41th story affair <3
and den we start travelling to nick's place..
theres an hr of train ride + 30 min of bost ride + 10 min of walking
den we reached his hse.

its damn FAR lar.
and the train stations are kinda horrible?
5 trains company. all using diff card (ezlink for spore)
change train needa exit and gain entry again wif a new card.
no wonder most ppl travelled ard by cars.taxis.

back to his hse. while im taking a break.
while nick is having his shower. THERES DE BLACK OUT.
imagine whole island w/o lights. except some that has generator.
lol. n nick was den saying we SUEY.
rain so much and even blackout.(blackout to dem occurs very very seldom)

simple lifestyle at pulau ketam. ahaha.
ah may was suggesting to build a villa there! for retirement. lol.
and theres realli nice foodie (:

and as for the genting trip.
we were so suey lo! we reached KL . seeing de poster.
with effect from 23rd the shop will close @ 5pm.
so we cant get any bus tix to genting.
so chui that we took taxi. HAHA.
even more suey and chui.
de driver drove so damn slow! 40km/hr.
HORRIBLE.

and heres de genting pics.

theres someone who asked ah may dis :" your husband din cum for holiday with you all?"
haha. den me n nick was like .. wanna LOL so badly.
seeing some of de photos. my real mummy did mention that it was really like a mother bringing 2 kids go for a holiday. LOL.

so thruout de whole trip . me n may seems so jinx.
so many suey things occur for de 1st time.
bud i think. i does bring ppl luck.
hahaha. during de holiday. the car plate which i noticed came in 1st prize .
den there was ah may nearly won starter prize.
den nick's daddy won a 3rd prize in 4D too. 1st time in his life.
and den. nick's mummy won a 1st prize jus days ago.
LOL.
and 2day. my daddy nearly won a 1st prize (my ic no.)
and my mummy nearly won the 2nd prize
HAHA.
i think i should have bet some 4D too.
i visted nick's parents and brought them so much luck.
so dun ever say i suey !! =D

okie. enuff of rubbish.
i gonna take my sunday seriously.
oh well. its my off day (:

take care ppl!
hugs&kisses.

sense of directions.

2008-03-29T01:16:00.002+08:00

my dearest nick pass me de wrong cable.
so i could only upload de photos earliest 2moro.

and my cute boyfriend still wasnt sure of directions.
be it in singapore or malaysia. =X
and im up on a new mission.
which is to draw cute maps for him (:

and on a lovely note.
i meet him after work for korean foodie & vantage point.
i still so love my sweetest boy <3

a reflecting holiday (:

2008-03-27T21:24:00.002+08:00

alright. im finally back.
hahaha. it has been a couple of days since im back from holiday.
bud it was till now. that ive some time to update.

1stly was the malaysia trip with my mummy (ah may) & mr nick (:
many many travelling + walking. lol.
its as tired as my previous leadership training courses.
lotsa uncertainties/unexpected situations throughout the trip. theres the blackout, unable to get bus tix.. etc.
and theres one train station that im so scared after.
humans gushing into the packed train without any leniency and courtesy.
its a scary matter. lol.
i will upload the pics soon (:
have lotsa reflections throughout the entire trip.
i will tok abt it mayb in the coming post with the pics.
the good + the bad = overall a nice expierence (:

and ive since started work.
quite nice colleagues actually. the best thing is that they gt me a brand new computor (:
bud ive lotsa stuffs to learn.omgness.
and its a small world that it was my dad who installed&programed the keyphones at my current office.
plus the surprising factor that almost everyone knew who my dad is.
some say im a spy.. some say i hold bits of resemblance of daddy.. lol.
im still in de midst of adjusting .
be it the sleeping hrs, makaning hrs.. etc.
everyone ought to be flexible.

i cant imagine if SIM really accept me into the management course.
i would be dead busy . & tireded.
lets see =)

oh yup. saw hweejun & zilin @ SIM 2day when i went down to submit my transcript.
lets meet up soon okie.
so miss you ladies (: (:

till den.
gdbye lovelies (:

a holiday note .

2008-03-20T23:51:00.002+08:00

okies. i know i ought to leave wj a nice note.
since ive been leaving him alone to clear his stuffs recently.
arh.ha. jus when u finally have some time for yourself.
im going for a holiday 2moro (:
haha. nick seems so excited about this trip. that he has been count-downing from a few weeks ago. lol.
and stuffs have been so coincidental dis days.
my 2nd bro is going over genting as well.
and i met nick @ citychain 2day .lol O.O

okays.
so here. hopes everyone is doing well and everything.
life seems so short to enjoy life. i realise.
i so gonna miss my lovely babies when im gone <3

cheeries folks.
i'll be back on tuesday .
with lotsa loves around (:

nice day (:

2008-03-18T01:00:00.002+08:00

back to back.
ive realised. ive to let things process one at a time.

so well. my 2nd round of interview.
i tot i flunked it. cos i so seems not interested to start working. lol.
n i din even ask when will they confirm/contact me again.
and i readily think abt finding another job . since no calls from the company till 6pm.
hahaha.
bud hack. the HR manager did called back after office hr telling me that i could sign the appointment letter 2moro (: (:
oh yup. so finally. i will be starting work from next week onwards.

did went down sim to complete my application form. and tp to apply for my transcript.
so yea. i was all over spore 2day.
n i think my ez link kinda exploded as a result.
im still so unsure abt my possibility in getting in this course.
since de intake is so damn small. and the compeitition is kinda stiff.
i shall jus leave it at 50% the most.

and i was at mdis 2day as well. collecting brochures. haha.
ive a backup plan if sim dun wan me.
and i went straight to borders after tt. i spent nearly 4 gd hrs reading books atthere.
hahaha.
n off to meet nick for supper (:
walking back the same old lorongs jus seems so nice.
haha.
with much loves ard <3

piyo going crazy.

2008-03-16T22:20:00.002+08:00

the title says it all.
university issues are driving me insane.
haix. its really probleming me.
bud hack. ive a lovely family.
that will go out with all means to support my studies.

so 2moro will be the start of my hectic week.
take cares everyone.

ciao~!

disastrous results.

2008-03-13T01:17:00.002+08:00

so. my predictions came true again.
that my results gonna be out 2day. damn.
a complete disaster.
jus an A for my career communication. CRM & BUSIM. readily jus CHUI-ed.
c/c+ for these sub is enuff to ruin my happiness of securing an A for career com.
LOL. even though i quite predicted it. haha.
already the last semester. who gonna really put in effort for these stupid modules anyway.
bud hack. i truely worked hard for my c-com. with so many late nights typing reports. presentations. resumes.interviews.
and im kinda surprised of my supply chain result (B). my crap of rubbish report. LOL.
ive fooled my tutor.
and there goes my happy major project. B+ (another CRAP of project)
haix. so thats the end of it. gpa still stucked at 3.08.
im kinda worried tt it will decrease when i receive my results thru an sms in the afternoon.
the sys was jus so lousy. that i mus log in thru de website den can i get my final gpa.

alright. enuff of my disastrous final sem results.
it really sucks.
bud. GONE WIF IT.
Im a happy graduate (:

and on a happier note. ive a pretty nice day spent wif my boyfriend (:
thats the very positive point for today.
which regards that im content abt my life at the moment <3

-with so many loves around

The game.

2008-03-11T18:07:00.003+08:00

very peaceful adding those nice rainings (:
i woke up feeling fresh. and having the second thoughts abt finding a job.
im kinda used to this lifestyle recently.. which is - enjoying life.
doing stuffs that ive always wanted to do badly during my poly life.
which was..
* catching up wif frens. be it a dinner, an activity or even a mahjong session.
* entertainment works! :P
* spending time wif my lovely babies (:
- as i jus realised. i so love them. as much i love my mummy .. and they each earn a kiss from me as a daily treat <3
* news & reading (i'll tok abt my recent reads shortly)
* an upcoming holiday (:
* room revamp! (that explains y my room is no longer a refuge shelter)
* spending more time with my dearest boy. (since we used to have our packed schedules lined up & whatever stuffs thats urgent)

see.thats how great my life is this days (minus sickness) = a blessing!
which explains the 2nd thoughts abt submitting resumes again. haha.
so maybe. i will start submitting one when im sicked of being "doing nothing" or when im broke.
plus the hightlight point that i cant work @ sakae. lol. its kinda heaven (:
so yup. see whether i'll change my mind again after im back from holiday. hahaha.

oh right. reading in such a great cooling weather is fab!
1stly was news that im very kaypo abt. lol.
the malaysian election results outcome that left a grining face in me. LOL.
political issues could be real interesting as it goes. seriously.
even the malays arnt supporting the government when it works as a muslim country.
and it shows that onli 49% of the population in malaysia (excluding other parts of the states , sabah..) supported BN.
omgness. no wonder the breaking news is as big as the tsunami.
so finally.. secondary days of studying UMNO. damn. i seriously love the sub. becos i jus dun support the idea of so fav. the malays.
and im still as glad when 5 states gonna ruled by the oppositions from now one.
so.. if u can really hear from me.
im under great influence of the oppositions. haha.
having living in the potong pasir constituency. attending rallies are my fav during election period. LOL.

and secondly. having heard so many comments abt the great book that any guy must read
THE GAME -by Neil Strauss. ( its abt a writer using another identity in revealing secrets society of pickup artists)
and in short. its actually teaching guys on how to seduce women!
ive knew many guy-friends whom had read abt it. realli WOW dem. lol.
i came across this book kinda often as well. be it at kino,borders,mph..
yesh. im kinda tempted at 1st. thinking " really that amusing?"
so..
after many months. just recently. wj talked abt this book again.
my 1st response was "so, u read abt dis book as well"
he highly recommended me to read it anyway. lol.
den sets me into thinking.. "what the hell abt reading a guy's book"
he promised me that it will change my understanding/perceptive of guys i used to have it.

so okay. i went borders to buy this book. many guys treated it as a bible. lol.
n yesh. im halfway done. and is enough to change my understanding of the opposite sex.
I jus felt so disgusted abt the facts .. the undergrounf thing that really exist.
omgness. for once. for now. I hate guys.
n i know y wj wanted me to read it so badly. haha.
he later pm saying. " yah. a preventive measure for u"
>.<"
omgness. i hate the game that really does exist.
bud nonethless. its a greatbook.
so anyone (males of females) interested in dis book as well.. give me a msg.
i can lend u dis "bible"
even though .. i dun quite like the idea of guys reading it. as they will be learning those disgusting techniques found in the book.

sets it right.
since im so free.
i think i ought to give nick some surprises (:

never gets too involved

2008-03-10T23:38:00.002+08:00

okie. jus to sum everything up.

interview with the agency company seems okay.
went back pp to collect my smelly uniform ive left in my locker since last week. lol.
returned $$.. returned cards..
heard lotsa rantings from my colleagues.
omg. i do really think tt pp gona be shattered soon.
haix. no comments for those staffs that happened when im away.
im jus too shocked for it.
and thats de reason i left pp before. POLITICS.INTERNAL CONFLICTS seems to be the main culprits in massive turnovers .
how interesting. when it still exist. today.
bud ive found a solution for it anyway.
that is : never gets too involved.

bud on a happier note.
i visited borders again (:
reading gonna be my fav habit dis days.

omg. it is still monday.!!
everything moving at snails' pace.
O.O i wanna receive my results quick!! (wed/thur)
lets see if i get a heartattack this time round.

babaye & take care.
i so miss everyone out there <3

lets welcome changes (:

2008-03-09T17:22:00.003+08:00

well. changes are essential.
that.
ive said goodbye to my long straight hair. O.O
im still adapting to my new look. fresh curlys (:
so when u bump to me. dun ever comment that my look is still the same since 10 years back ok.
not that im emotionally impaired. its jus that.
Its time for a change (:

so.
life is still as peaceful as ever. minus those occasional pains & aches.
had gallbladder infection/inflammation which sets me into thinking.
damn. this illness only occurs to women in the late 40s. so whats realli going on inside my stomach?
and i could onli find my answer in a scheduled appointment on the 20th.
thus. for the moment. i cant take oily stuffs.
i cant overworked myself.
omg. this is terrorism.

oh yup. recently.
on regarding the men is jus like rubber bands. haha.
ahbao so clever arh! you mus had read alot (:
sometimes i jus find it so true. when bfs are suddenly gone in a flash. and then came back w/o notice.
not that willingly to listen to their gf. not that enthu abt whats going on, when they jus want to b by themselves.
oh. and i just find tt it happens to lotsa ppl out there.
theres actually no problems/rocky situations in the relationship.
we jus have to understand and bear in mind. Its a cycle.
And another interesting fact:
Men argue for the right to be free while women argue for the right to be upset.
& Men wants space while women wants understanding.
And then it sends me into another thinking, on why teenagers' love relationship seldom last.
childish,imature thinking, lack of understanding seems to fit the bill.
i dunno y ive sudden comments regarding these.
it just came up from nowhere. as a receipt i read abt relationship chapters some time ago (:

billboom.
ive a job interview as a project executive 2moro.
and im pretty excited about it.
haha. wish me luck (:

a week to rmb.

2008-03-06T23:51:00.005+08:00

oh my goodness. im finally back to update (:
after hearing tons of concern.
its time to be back.

so. i gonna jus rewind abit. since i do think its essential to leave a note to rmb .
even though it dosent feel right, even though it dosent feel good
bud hack. ive had a terrible last whole week.
stretching from monday (after chalet) to sunday
and i think. i nearly crumble myself to depression again.
1stly was my gallbladder infection which lasted from monday to now ):
damn. its dead terrible i swear. and becos de medicine was too strong for me..
i nearly vomitted everytime after eating those med.
and jus collapse due to the side effects (dizzyness)
losing almost 80% of my appetite seriously.
and it has not ended.
im going polyclinic for a referal letter to the hospital 2moro.
arks.

and for the second matter.
it seriously matters me the most.
one whole week of uncertainties.
one whole week of heart breakings.
bud im glad we are now more understandable of each other (:
so at least. we dont give up tt easily.
and real thanks for de concern ppl.
we are finally back on track (:
and im real looking forward to the genting trip dis good friday! <3

oh yup. for the past few days.
its was mahjong-ing wif my kakis again (:
jaren, mao mao.. too bad uncle wasnt ard this time round.
hahaha.. i gonna declare mahjong as my substitue income. =P
hello ppl! call me for mahjong anytime. anywhere! (:
and mao mao has been nice to accompanying me looking for the private institution.
lol.. getting lost! and many many walk arounds.
and the ben & jerry ice cream! (:
10x a million my brother mao mao !
and if u are reading dis .. do claim a meal from me okie.
i seriously owe u one (:

and nick has been "nice", restricting me on what i can eat. and what i cant eat since im sick.
even mentioned that he gonna be surprised if im healthy lol.
i gonna drag him back to amk for another round of western food when i recover =P
to add on. mummy laughs at me when she knows about bringing a PEAR back.
>.<" nick jus left me a pear when i wanna board my bus.
how wierd. how funny. how lame.
LOL. previously.. if i rmb. he left left me an apple.
HAHA. so which fruit next?

and jus on an extra note.
i rmb reading a chapter abt men are like rubber band.
when a man loves a woman, periodically he needs to pull away before he can get closer.
oh. and its a 28 days cycle.
lol.

and women are like waves.
same. 28 days cylce.
will talk more abt it in my next post.
results out next week! EXCITED.

and for the most coincident thing that has happened.
i met linjie in viwawa mahjong.
out of those diff channels.
out of those thousands of ppl.
out of the numerous tables.
so qiao right.
HAHAHAHA. never ever imgaine tt.
thats call fate (:

and on the very last note.
thankies those lovely care and concern for dis 2 weeks.
im real fortunate to have u ppl as my besties.
love u ppl (:

F9

2008-02-24T20:02:00.002+08:00

oh hoo.
finally. im back from the chalet.
lotsa screamings from mahjong-ing =D
stupid dumb.ness that ive contracted from yingying =X
and its still as nice meeting them (:

glad that the week has finally cuming to an end.
i gonna start searching for jobs from 1st week of march.
money issues seems urgent . haha.
im not gonna think so much abt those problematic stuffs anymore.
i would only get back into my sickness in no time.
and since finally i got so much better after winning those mahjong..
i gonna enjoy my life and stop stressing on this and that.
as life is still as great if u sees it in a positive way (:

oh..
and the F9 thingy zi and i was talking abt seems so funny.
me too will give nick a big fat F9 =X
hahaha.
i jus close one eye for the moment.
lets see.

alright. i gonna rest in very soon.
didnt rest well becos of chalet.
my whole body seems so chui. haha.

Till den.
with much loves (:

women are from venus.

2008-02-20T21:33:00.003+08:00

i guess its time for me to get ample rest.
ive caught a terrible cold.
and its really troubling me. no more clarinase pills .. sharks.
i gonna have a hard time 2night.
mummy say me for staying for so long hrs in de hospital.
wj say im a dumbo for de same reason..
they knew ive low immune sys.
bud whatever. its too late to fight back anything now.
im sick.

alright.
for whatever de case. i need some time alone.
thats the reason why im hibernating.
nth happened actually. so no worries ppl (:
found back my joy of hanging out wif my lovely frens.
found back my time of reading self-improvement books.
and somehow found back my happiness of catching up wif my dearests.
be it msn.email.friendster or in person.
i so miss you people <3

and i guess. its kinda true that men are from mars.
and no matter what. women are always from venus.
we think/talk/analyse/process everything just so differently.
in the end. wj questioned me oh how much my understanding towards nick worth.
as when he sees a drastic change in me over these years.
it kinda shocked me when i learned abt this.
so.. does understanding really worth some value?
u cum tell me.

so jus in within.
we talked abt lotsa things. since he was recovering from his illness.
and im resting my body as well. we had so much free time to conclude.
haha.
brought back really great memories. and i really wondered y we can still remain as friends.
hack that u would feel wierd reading abt yourself in this post.
bud seriously. i does felt the warmness .. etc..
when ive to understand my boy again.
that he needs space.
it seems so routined to me. since the day i get to know him.
so.. im kinda immuned to this sucky feeling. lol.

back to back.
for those lovely care and concern.
comments. emails. personal messages.
its really sweet (:
and i jus felt so glad that u finally acknowledge my decision.
i know that you are in a very difficult position.
bud hack. you are my guardian angel. <3
always so patient wif me. whenever im so lazy to reply.
whenever i dun feel like talking.
and whenever my mood swings like roller coaster.
bud you never gave up on me. still out there, supporting me (:
even though we always had different thinkings. and theories.
it still helps in generating reasons.

lol. its so hard to find such a sturbon person =D
and i sincerely thanked you for being such a nice friend all these years (:

and on to a more serious matter.
surprisingly. i din know that everyone ard me had the perception that im a dead busy individual.
it kinda wowed me.
i mentioned abt my schedules starting from tomoro to next sunday.
and he gave me this reaction 0.0"
and questioned me abt whether ive enough time for nick and my family.
lol. am i really that busy? hmmm.

thur-work + gathering.
fri-work + outing.
sat-chalet
sun-chalet + air show.

monday-working.
tuesday-back to school for some serious matter.
wednesday-working.
thursday- im free (:
friday-working + study/career fair
saturday- study/career/travel fair.
sunday- ktv sessions.

bud yup. im still as happy when people does ask me out (:
even those very random people. i would still jolly take my time out for it yah!
before i start my career chapter. see me more often =D

okie.
thats it.
ive to rest.
becos.. i think i having a fever.

best of luck to those having exams 2moro -ZILIN.
haha.. and study hard my lovely friends who are preparing exams.
as for ying ying - i went borders and so tempted to buy you the novel (ps. i love you)
=X

take care.
i so misses you people <3

hibernating

2008-02-20T01:17:00.005+08:00

lol. i think 1 picture shows everything :

im so nice to get her daisys for the second time.lol.
get well soon okie! (:
and in the end. i caught a flu tt bugs me till now.
wif a sore throat butterflying me. i guess i gonna be sick pretty soon.
ive so much free time.
haha. its time for me to get some rest den (:

and i think flowers still do wonders. haha.
jus like the fact tt i love lilies so much.

for now.
im the one hiding in the cave.
*hibernating*

every second holds a meaning.

2008-02-18T01:28:00.002+08:00

to sum it up.
theres the NAFA test.
in which im left wif breaking bones and muscles.

sentosa flower fair.
in which im kinda disappointed.
as to compared wif the past.

bud much to detail.
my whole body aches like hell.
i was so dead that i woke up replying sms @ 12. den returning to sleep.
onli waking up @ 4pm. lol.
and i could hardly take de stairs.
damn. it was even worst compared to my saturday.

and wj even have de cheek to laugh at me.
when he was still in de midst of recovering from the illness.
pls so take care and get well soon (:

so here.
im now enjoying my life.
really anticipating every second of my it.
so nice. so great.
n ive working less dis days. haha.
not that im lazy. its tt.
i realised. the importance of having ample rest.
the significance of enjoying life to de max.
its like regarding each day as my last in this world.
and i still felt so great so have my loved ones ard (:

and dis week seems so exciting!
-3 working days.
-gathering wif my cambodia mates!
-CHALET wif my dearest 2f mates!!

it somehow caught me in my dream.
u should know .. we so misses u.
and since you had left us for 4 gd years.

till den.

happy valentine's day <3

2008-02-15T02:49:00.004+08:00

oh ho!

happy valentine's day <3 seriously.
ive no intention of buying anything for nick.
haha. its like. arh.. nth seems to be in my liking.
so. ive made up an idea to bake him a cake.
damn. becos of de cake. i skipped my c com last lesson.
n luckily pear was nice enuff to help collect my results. (:
so heres de cake :

and ive been nice enuff to make him a card as well.
hahaha.
its been ages since ive done DIY stuffs.
n realising that i could cut heart shapes in one go.
no need to even draw de outline. lol.

n im jus so glad u appreciate what ive done.
n i think. afterall.
its the thoughts that counts.
and of the greatness that we've so understand each other.
im really contented wif my life right now.

of the final note.
i so love my boyfriend <3

no.1 , no.2 & no.3

2008-02-13T01:23:00.000+08:00

oh. im finnally back (:

theres the chinese new year event.. which jus went past in a flash. lol.
bud theres still some phtos to left the memories (:

*no.1 , no.2 and no. 3 (:*
no.1 has a wife.
no.2 mentioned tt he has many gfs.
no.3 followed no.2 saying she has many bfs.

*all those small kids*

and ive been eating non stop since new year eve.
appetite has been real good .. lol.

bud right off the rack.
currently. everything so far so good (:
work. lol. somehow.. it has split to 2 diff countries working under de same outlet.
nah. i gonna jus hack care everything. since i gonna find a perm job soon.
hahha.. im now ENJOYING MY LIFE! =D
working jus onli twice a week. ive more time for my loved ones <3
and i think. ive picked up my good reading habit again.
been droping by book stores very often dis days.
haha. n ive snap a recipe for a choco cake. haha.
sounds real bad. bud yah. i jus wan a page out of it. n i dun wanna spend twenty over dollars for tt.
since ive de tendency of losing cook books after those baking sessions. haha.
somehow. i baked till the bk jus vanished.

n im jus back from movie-ing cj7. wif mummy (:
its jus so damn cute.
n its kinda touching as well :)
and we paisayed ourself so much by dinning in @ hbf sakae.
thanks to mummy's idea. wanted to catch up wif nick so much. lol.
mummy complained abt dis n tt. haha.
and everyone was asking nick if may was my real mummy. LOL.
n we seems so richy. HAHA.
mummy ordered all de ex ex dishes.
esprit juice.
heneiken.
hahaha.
n i not gonna dine in there anymore. LOL.

alright.
i know no.1 (my big bro) still pass by my blog. yeap.
hope you ppl are enjoying your holiday (:
i miss u eating tibits. =X

lol. i not gonna care much abt what kelvin had mentioned. LOL.
ive total trust and confident in nick (:
oh yup. life's so nice becos of someone who still loves to bully his piyo.
sounds contradicting. bud hack.
piyo does bully back her sweetest boy as well <3

*hugs.&.kisses*

kick . kick

2008-02-06T04:08:00.000+08:00

ooolala.

finally im done wif my spring cleaning.
haha.. i so love my room. as much as i love my babies.
(:

right. work wasnt as bad as i tot it would be.
life still gotta goes on, even my motivation has transfered to hbf. lol.
bud hack. theres my mummy ard (:

so hopefully, last min shopping for 2moro. heh!
i jus cleared my wardrobe. and its kinda empty now. LOL.
n i jus realised. oh yea.. my pay should be coming in soon soon! =D

so here. everything is kicking good for the moment.
people are envious ive cleared my studies. haha.
no more exams okie.
on the dot.
i so miss my sweetest boy <3

*blessed*

from truck to lorry (:

2008-02-05T02:09:00.000+08:00

tada!
not that im lazy. its tt im damn exhausted & tired at the end of past few days.
its terrible of not having enuff sleep daily.
theres work @ pp & hbf.
career fair.
presentations.
reunion dinner.
shopping.
makan/suppering.

no more then 5 min on my bed. thats how fast i travelled to dreamland.
lol. everyone knows i need at least 10 hrs of sleep to keep me awake and pumping.
bud hack.
ive onli 5/6 hrs daily.
with so many stuffs lined up. frm early morning to past midnight.
and tue gonna be a sad day. 12-11
damn. i felt like resigning. seriously. im sick of it.
lol.
bud im so broke dis days ):

bud lets party !
no more going school. onli for an interview next week (:
my diploma course had somehow ended!
im so wheepy happy lar (",)

n yup. cny coming. which im not realli looking forward to.
still not captured the right mood for the festival.
lol.

and on a happier note. Ive found the right balance.
done lotsa stuffs last few days.
haha. glad that everything kicking gd.
and i gonna miss you when you are back home (:

dis time round.
i send u a lorry full of <3

*muacks.

of those i wanna grow old with (:

2008-01-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

at least.
2moro will be start of busy schedules of running here n there.
n im going back work soon (:

so, its not that bad.
ive to be independent.
as much i used to be *cheers*

10x for those lovely ones who drop care n concern over this difficult period.
i truely appreciate that. i really do feel loved all over again <3
those of my lovely frens, whom i wanna grow old with.
and wj has been the nicest ever, left a really sweet comment at friendster.
omgoodness. i miss u as well (:

bud fear not. im already in the midst of recovering.
and i think those self-improvement books does pumps in energy for me ..
as for what really happned. hoho.
i really dun wish to elaborate much.
but lets jus hope that we will be back on track soon.

and yesh. im in de midst of finding a private school to get a degree. heh!
and so yesh. im back on my mind. and i do really think that a diploma cert cant feed me well. lol.
another impt matter. i wanna start find a job real soon. after cny (:
a real permanent full time job (:
with 35,000 jobs unfilled right now @ de current market. haha. im getting excited! (:

and jus on the extra factor.
big bro and my da sao were now @ tokyo enjoying themselves.
lol. its kinda amazing that we chatted in msn.
its never the case for me. since de day i start using msn. lol.
sounds kinda pathetic.
bud hack. hope you ppl are enjoying okie.
take care (:

life is still as great to have my loved ones around.
including u (:

quiet.

2008-01-27T13:51:00.000+08:00

aiyak.
im having a very very bad flu.
and it kinda scares me. as the week passes so fast.
bored lifestyle.
that i still have supply chain quiz to study. interview to prepare.

seriously.
im tired of all these.
it seems so difficult for me.
everyone is busy with stuffs so current.
u busy. i busy.
u free. i busy.
i free. u busy.
"busy" sounds so fucking killer to me out of the sudden.
im just so sad to think of anything right now.
till the extent. that i wanna study hard for my scm quiz to pause the disappointment & sadness.
for the 1st time. i wanna drink. like theres no 2moro.
lets just booze.

babaye everyone.
just leave me alone for the time being.
i wish everything could just end.

everything.

weddings

2008-01-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

it may sounds really stupid.
but yesh. i felt like getting married after watching the saturday 930pm show on channel 8. LOL.
i dunno why.
for the past few weeks since its debut.
i had been watching it without fail.
haha. to the point that i happens to be free at the timeslot.
i loves to attend weddings.
but sadly, marriage seems so far fetch for me ):
still many years to go i think.
and yesh. i admit. marrying at an early age used to be my childhood wish (:

but im really waiting for bro's wedding. hehe.
pinch me*
i ought to be more awake. hah

so..
actually.
ive shopped for the past 2 days.
when ive still tonnes of workload awaiting me.
and.
i recommend the KOI CAFE @ toa payoh.
the bubble tea is just WOW-ly nice (:
and those chewy pearls .. yummy (",)
interesting .
as it has the options..
big pearl/small pearl
less sugar/half sugar/no sugar.
small/medium/large
even though its more expensive compared to others like those a dollar ones/each a cup/etc.
i love dis more than any shops out there (:

wj has been so nice since he talked to me again. lol.
he wants me to have a new habit.
to count my blessings before i goes to my dreamland every day.
heh! it may sound stupid again.
but hack. i think its kinda wonderful.
to realise that im surrounded with my loved ones/etc.
and yesh, im content of my life (:
and said :
"telling oneself the day has finally ended" makes one happier as well ..
haha.
he always have his ways.
makes me into a better person. no longer holding grudges of anyone..etc..
and yesh.
i so miss you guys (:

but hack.
i miss my boyfriend even more <3

garang garang * wayang wayang

2008-01-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

just hand up the "garang" & "wayang" individual supply chain report.
i think scoring this project is never a case for me.
if it is so. that means christina must had her hair waxed up by me.
just a pass. and im happy (:

still, the mc that i had comes in handy.
skipped c com for the second time. lol.
im just too lazy to attend the last lesson. as it reminds me of the torture taking bus service no.8 home.
always dead packed containers full of students.
and i really hate that.

and on a happier note.
sheryl msged me the good news. that im finally clear of salmonella (:
which means i can go back work already. and that really wow me up.
lol. as im really scared that its gonna be positive again.
and nick replied me of "sick cat turns strong cat"
so yup. will be back for work when feb starts. how excited can i get?

and so. i realised something that seems so heartwarming.
yayness to the point that, wj no longer ignore me (:
lazy to elaborate of what had happened actually.
but still. he is really a nice guy.

i said goodbye to insomnia months ago.
and i think nick did the same as well.
and in actual fact, he turns in even earlier then me nowadays.
as we no longer worries and thought of matters that seems suffocating.
but sadly enough, my old problem is catching me up.
liver/gallbladder infection*
chui. i jus seems so old.

anyway.
ive sort things out.
its the projects that make me so emo for the past one week.
nice to hear comments about the *understanding* matters.
hahaha.

i still so love my boyfriend <3

motivated!

2008-01-23T14:41:00.000+08:00

had took one day off to rest my soul.
after so many days of project-ing. so many days of sickness
and also to spend some time wif nick (:

so theres de grocery shopping.
soup making session.
tv session
and our gelare waffles.
i so loved tuesdays. de 1/2 priced waffles (:
...
...

n yeap. understandings n commitment does play an impt part.
n there goes my lovely tuesday <3
at least. it makes me more motivated to work on my project again.

n mayb i should leave de insecurity issues aside.
things arent tt bad if i sees it positively.
n actually. theres no arguements/fights/quarrels/disagreements going on ..
oh well. de disappointment will fades.
lets jus pray hard.

sent u a truckload full of <3
(: (: (:

a jab of happy dose worth a million

2008-01-21T20:27:00.001+08:00

hmm..
i think the hrs spent on my computer doing projects is more than anything right now.
more than my sleeping hrs.
more than my schooling hrs.
more than the time i spent wif nick.
in short. im using my computer+bro lappy for at least 12 hrs a day.
and i think. its real horrible to realise dis ):

bud on a happier note. BSI report sumbitted.
CRM for my part completed. n ive de done de compiling as well.
n derrick commented tt ive done a gd job for my part (:

so far so good.
supply chain report already on de 9th page.
n ppl have been commenting tt ive been so hardworking dis days. lol.
its really the last run!
im left with
1. supply chain report
2. c com interview
3. supply chain quiz
4. supply chain interview
5. BSI presentation
6. CRM presenation

7. NAFA TEST ):

before i realli considered a graduate.
and i think my stool test results gonna be out 2moro n wed ):
pls. jus NEGATIVE okie.
im really into eating grass. if it turns out positive again.
means. 2 more weeks mc @ cdc + 2 previous weeks = 1 month not working!

yeap. thanks my deary frens who had drop msgs of concern (:
i really do miss my girlfrens..
celebrating for eileen's birthday can can??

arks. for no matter what reasons.
i still need a jab of HAPPY.DOSE

still content?

2008-01-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

phew. im finally done up de bsi report.
n i wonder what happen to gmail.. it jus dun send out de compiled report.

chui. i haven done up de crm. derrick gonna kill me if he knows abt it. lol.
so. my weekend are spent solely on my projects. kinda pathetic right ):
i felt so out of breathe suddenly.
life just so so sucky.

i used to be content of my life. jus back in dec.
having a nice family. wonderful frens. relaxing semester/holiday. cute babies.
fun loving colleagues. and a sweet bf.

bud it seems.
ive lost half of it.
-half of my happinese gone.
bud ive once cherished it so heartedly.

lets jus absorb moonlight (:

home bound.

2008-01-19T15:39:00.000+08:00

Even though things arent looking tt good at the moment.
im jus that glad to have such a nice fren of REALLY WAKING UP MY SENSES!
thanks so much weian! (: (:
and yen has been really nice as well. called me up.. checking on my condition.
now i know. who i can realli depend on.
who are the ones always by my side.
and never really given up on me.

weian realli gave me lotsa motivation (:
my mission is to clear bsi and crm project by sunday!
and it would be great if i could clear half of my scm report.
and de very good news would be. i needa go back skool only on thursday for next week!

and ive declared brankrupt yest. having $0 in my wallet. lol.
so .. i gonna jus lock myself at home.
so pls. dun ask me out till next week okie.

bye ppl!
projects - im loving it! (:

so in the end. its was someone whom i cherished the most, dump me on one side.
leaving me to tackle my problems and clearing the mess by myself.
its so heartening to realise this.

when im in the midst of clearing projects. staying up late everyday.
waking up early travelling to SATA clinic for the numerous stool test.
enduring the lessons with stomach pains.
passing out due to fatigue and pains in the end.
im always alone. and makes me even more F up when u dun reply my sms.
so whats the point.im jus so disappointed in u.
ive totally no idea.
what u are up to.

love you!

2008-01-18T19:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE WORLD'S GREATEST MUM!

u are always there for me.
when i needed u de most.
always being so patient. so caring. so lame.
just so nice to have u ard all dis years.
so blessed being your only daughter.
and i really do love you <3

* HUGS & KISSES *

i really do feel like crying

2008-01-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

life sucks big time @ de moment.
projects are definitely killing me. theres supply chain. crm. bsi.
the never ending stuffs that i had to do ..
and the never ending insecurties im facing.
in addition. the salmonella virus tt my stomach is fighting.

its seriously killing me.
i left early during supply chain tutorial. becos i jus cant stand it anymore.
n i think i did passed out shortly after i reached home..
bud still.
ive tonnes of projects awaiting me.
i so wish ive more time.
even though im on mc. i still goes back skool every single day.
damn.

and even though wj had somehow completely ignored me.
wa has still being nice. always asking abt my health occasionally for de past one week.
ever since when i update him abt de virus im carryin.
so thank you okie.
i find it so heart-warming to have someone to have a nice chat whenever i sianxed doing my project.
becos. u are always there. on my msn list (:

and i realli find it realli sading. its a cycle that seems to be.
i seems better. cos im facing with millions of workload @ de moment.
i hardly had much time to think.
so much so tt im rushing everything. keeping me dead busy.
i jus dun wanna have the disappointed feeling running thru me de whole day.
and i really do feel like crying..

time to get some rest

2008-01-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

ahhh chewww*

cant believe tt ive jus caught a cold on my way home.
stomach was still as playful as ever.
my scalp was badly scratched as well ):

n everyone was saying im a sick cat.

n i jus so miss u.
even though we parted our ways jus an hr ago.
<3

MC.

2008-01-11T23:27:00.000+08:00

hmm..

im officially on a 2 weeks mc. becos im a case/carrier of salmonella virus.
in short. de prima deli virus.
haix. theres good and bad.
so. jus look for de optimistic side (:

chalet was over. oh. im refering to sheryl birthday @ aranda.
lol. its somehow fun lar. when 2 of my part timers are DRUNK. lol.
in de end. mi n nick gotta take good care of kaya. since he was sleeping de same room as us.
>.<" and we dunno woke up how many times to help him wif his puking.

skool stuff was okay. tried my best not to think so much abt it.
and had lotsa travellng dis few days.
from pasir ris to home. from home to skool. den skool to home again.
den back to skool again. den went back parkmall. and den finally back hom.
thats jus one single day okie.
den today.
from home to office. den back to home. from home go sata clinic. den go back skool.
den from skool go back home.

and i think im down with flu.. cos i caught some sunny rain 2day.
chui. i everyday still will l-s.. i wonder when will it stop.
its kinda mild. bud its bothering me.

bud yup. ive decided to give de open hse thingy a miss.
going back my family doc for de medicine i think.
and yesh.
so much thanks of de concern from my sweetest boy.
im jus so glad that u tested negative for de virus.
lol. n he mock me that he gotta take 2 weeks of mc to take care of me.
haha. suddenly felt so loved dis days.
and i so miss u <3

of my great friend (:

2008-01-06T01:10:00.001+08:00

i think.. working on my projects/tv-ing does makes me realise.
i should stop brooding so much of shit im facing.
i need to have dis mentality. "I LOVE PROJECTS"
I seems sick. bud hack.
i still needa done up my projects whatever de matter arises.
and so much thanks of the concern weian.
realli enjoy chatting with u. i so miss those old good times.
bud sadly. your bro doesnt seems to realise the fact that a friendship is actually a better investment.
u does makes me felt better afterall (:

promise. dis gona be my last drink.
tada! i seriously needa stop drinking.
weian jus highlighted that ive a gall bladder infection years ago.
lol.
i nearly forget how i swallowed all those big big pills to get me recovered.
and on those days when i could hardly walked ard.
and yesh. those are de days when im on MC most of the period.
and failing my Amath all de way as well. haha

right.
de night is good.
i jus realised. chinese new year is jus one more month! ARKS.
shopping trips! bud hack. im still waiting for my pay. real sianx.
and de upcoming weeks i gonna be faced with PROJECTS. open house matters.
interviews. nafa test. presentation.
ive no more extra time to think so much as well.
no more extra time to work.
and no more extra time to become insomnia.

life's still as great with great frens around.
thankies again. to my weian.
how i wish u are my younger bro.
lol.

ciao!

becos i so love u.

2008-01-05T13:26:00.000+08:00

lotsa stuffs are happening dis days..
theres de mahjong cum new year count-downing at uncle's hse.
jaren's birthday @ downtown east.
etc.

life's hectic.

and yet.
a sad day to start with.
ive had a very very bad dream.
jus tt tot of losing everything seems scary.
de point is. dis dream seems so real.

whenever things starts to backs off.
theres de old current thats chasing me ..
pls. it dosent comfort me any better.
u jus hurts me more.

yet. stuffs jus arent my side dis days.
de insecurities u had given me. i think could jus count up a mountain.
im always trying to be optimistic abt things going on.
bud sadly. i jus could not hide anymore.
its the fact that everyone sees.
which adds to the concerns and questions that ppl are showering on me.
im so trying my best to not have high expectations on u.
bud damn. i felt so cursed.
ppl are cheering on how i've understand u. on having an understanding gf.
bud they never know. it jus hurts me more whenever i hear tt.
its jus. "the covered up image"

in de end. i jus felt sad.disappointed.insecured.
nth else.
jus dis 3 words to describe what im feeling right now.
and i so felt like drunking myself with de amsterdam and de volka ard.

bud still.
i still needa rush my project.
im not even feeling cheery when i ACE my supply chain paper.
and on de dotting point.
i still so love u.
my sweetest boy.

goodbye for de moment.
it takes time to heal.

2007 & 2008

2008-01-03T02:15:00.001+08:00

tada!

goodbye to my beloved 2007 and holiday.
ive always wanted to write something abt my wrappings of de year..
de resolutions of de new year.. etc.
bud sadly.. till now. ive de time to post.

well.
jus to sum it up..
2007 has been kinda good year for me (:
it past off me so quickly. bud with lotsa wonderful memories.
2007 started off good with de new year celebration at weini's hse..
makes me treasure my bunch of girl-friends even more. in additions to those chalets and birthday celebrations (:

and the wonderful 10 days spent @ cambodia.
de team spirit. and fun.. everything ..
i so miss those times..
(:

in short. im content with what ive done/had during 2007.
ive a nice family (:
ive a bunch of sweet girl-friends (:
another bunch of mahjong kakis..
i still meet up my primary mates for a couple of times..
having nice colleagues which makes work more enjoyable..
the many birthday celebrations with family, dearest, frens, colleagues, ex-colleagues.
having my lovely babies-3 cats + danielle (:
and esp. having my sweetest boy ard <3

thanks all those who makes my 2007 a wonderful year..
*loves*
life jus so great to have u ppl ard..
hah..i think. i dun needa state who and who. u ppl should know (:

as for my 2008..
i wish for abundance HAPPINESS ! (including all my loved ones)
i do hope my bronchitis does gets better..
getting a proper permanent job.
same as 2007. having all my dearest ard ..
i jus love u ppl lar! (:

*CHEERS*

many loves to all my family, girl-friends, brothers, friends..
and my mr nick ong (:

of my fav flowers.

2007-12-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

damn. we are both down wif a terrible stomachache.
mus be becos of the fishball noodle >.<"
do hope that u are getting better okie (:

and its jus kinda hard to believe that i needa go back to skool 2moro.
tada! i say goodbye to my holiday. kinda sad that its ending.
chui. lifes' like tt. ive tonnes of project work i needa face.
as ive slacked all the way during my holiday.
bud yup. ive one more event to go. thats jaren's chalet on tues. hahaha.
that gonna be my last play day. i promise (:

and..
2008 seems so frightening to me out of de sudden.
de calendar of events strikes me pretty hard.

january.. -the many many projects' deadlines..
with many birthdays cuming up as well..

feb- chinese new year (:
last day of school (14/2/08)
plus a couple of birthdays (:

and yup. for now. dun ask mi much abt work stuffs @ sakae.
as for de moment. im jus passing time. sometimes.. i realli find it stupid to work there. lol.
those routine work. which makes me. tada. no more of the previous anticipation of working there.
waiting for my last day of school. den i gonna find a proper perm job.
somehow working jus to earn some extra cash.. haha. i dun wanna eat grass lar!
and yea. i can get to see my nick as well (:

alright. until dis moment..
i still have to mood/motivation to do any project. kinda excited that 2moro going back skool to collect my bsi results onli. heh!
new year ma.. so its jus half day.
2moro den start doing my project lar.
since. ive no intention of counting down.
and im not working as well.

2moro will be a good day.
provided im not late for class (:

of the many days of celebrations.

2007-12-28T12:25:00.000+08:00

lotsa stuffs did happened since last monday till now.
the ktv-ing, movie-ing, christmas! plus the many birthday celebrations.

jus had another bronchitis attack. on thur.
tads.. i tot im dying. realli dying when i jus cant find my medicine.
and im down wif fever also. superly shagged when i cant sleep @ all.
bud yup. im kinda recovered and still went down to join dem for linjie's cake cutting session (:
to my dearest linjie, do hope that u are recovering fast okie! take care (:

nick's big day adds to the many birthday celebration as well (:
theres his hse sharkfin dinner-ing with his housemates + colleagues.
marche + brochitz?(i forget the spelling) hah. with his ex classmates.
and waraku-ing with the old gang @ sakae (:
sincerely hoped that u had enjoyed yourself okie.
love u <3

alrights. sometimes i do think that having too high of expectations jus literally adds to those disappointment that im having. or mayb its the silence that indirectly causes thos ezero returns.
bud no matter what.. i gonna stay optimistic as well.
becos i realli do cherish u (:

alright. i jus read some blogs that i happened to came across. LOL.
i feel like laughing out ..
jus in case. they happned to be readin dis. LOL.

till den.
<3

perplex!

2007-12-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

oh well.ive been busying since. thursday?
hardly had my 10 hrs of sleep dis days. thats de reason y im starting to fall sick again.
de virus spell seems to be glue-ing me for de past 1 month plus. ):
so indeed. im having a bad headache. and a flu.

back to those activities.
hweejun and ridzwan/cheryl had yet to send me the pics. thus i cant upload any!
and im late for both occasions. de birthday and bbq. lol.
birthday celebration was nice. seeing those ppl and everything (:
bbq was nice as well. damn! de food barbequed by derrick was awwsomely NICE! (:
SPICY ALL DE WAY MAN!
everything on sambal and balajian. LOL.
den the baileys.. haha. i think i might have lactose intolerance.
felt like puking in de end. after all those round of games..the milk jus. ..

well. working situations had been going up and down like SGX stocks currents.
nvm den. i wun stay long. jus needa tolerate abit for de moment.
im kinda lazy to find a new job now.
having de need to quit and find a new perm job @ march..

bud yup. yesterday my ah may mummy brought me go gai gai. haha
to sakae teppan @ bugis.
seeing all those familiar faces are jus so nice lar (:
and we seems to be making a din while we dined in. hahaha.

and yesh. lotsa bad stuffs did happened too.
all in one shot on de fateful saturday ):
nahs.. im not gonna think abt it anymore. life is sometime too perplexing for me to think.
thank god ive nick ard dis time round (:
dis week schedule clashed all over.. bud yup.
we will have a good next week. starts from 2moro.
its always so hard for me to give agnes my schedule. de possibility of schedule clashed is kinda high.
bud yup. next week gonna be a good week! (:

ciao!
with <3

let the party begins (:

2007-12-13T11:11:00.000+08:00

oh man! the party is on! (:
here comes my 18 days of holiday! LOL.

even thou its kinda short. bud hack. its de last holiday. and ive onli jan and 1/2 feb. before i grad! how nice! (:
ive seriously under tremedous stress dis days. its earthquake at a moment, floods at the moment, the de volcanic eruptions, etc.
makes me so affected afterall.
bud yup. finally. de 2 papers are over! haha.
results will be out 1st week of jan. whao! itsa sure pass papers. bud yup. im expecting A's for dis papers. (:

cha cha cha!
ive loads of things lining up for dis holiday. and yeap. i still needa work at the moment.
and reality always strikes me bad.
haha. even thou things arnt realli going on my side all dis times.
bud yup. thankgoodness ive a bunchies of girlfrens! (:
and im meeting dem 2moro! ho ho ho.
its always been great meeting them up. catchin up wif dem.
cos im always de odd one out. with a super wierd holiday/exam period.
and im always kinda stucked with my work previously.

and theres class bbq jus next on queue! HAHA
foodie makes me happy. as usual (:

&! december is jus so great lar. so many movies i wanna watch!
theres the warlords, alvin and de chipmunks, national treasure...
mahjong sessions,gatherings,ktvs,makans!
also! the many birthday celebrations on de upcuming weeks!

even though im still not in de positive mood.
bud hack. hopefulli things would happy me up more with these activities.

i so miss my friends! (:

and yup.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BEST FRIEND! ZI! (:
may u receive all de happy returns !!

cya ladies in hrs time (:

moving on (:

2007-12-11T00:29:00.000+08:00

thanks ppl for de concern (: im feeling much better.
mayb. i hoped that the black clouds are finnally off my head.
ive decided to move on. hack what u guys wanna comment or what.
no point treasuring/cherishing ppl tt do not appreciate and jus make things ugly.
foregones with the past.
im moving on wif a new chapter of life (:

actually things starts to seems better when i happen to bypass nick's blog.
i always tot tt he had abandon his blog.
never did i knoe he wrote sth for me.

" 还好一路上，在我身边多了一个人陪我走接下来的日子，那就是我的女朋友-致秀。她总是在我最无聊和不开心的时候陪伴着我，虽然我现在不能给你任何东西，但将来我会把拥有的一切都给你。跟你在一起真得让我好开心，我也知道自己也该长大了，不能像以前那么的幼稚，不会再让你为我伤心流泪。希望我们可以一起开开心心的度过将来的日子。"

well. ive seriously no idea whether u visits my blog anot.
bud yup. jus wan u to know.
i felt so blessed afterall.
i truely cherished everything that doesnt comes easily.
many loves to my sweetest boy till de very end <3

to be continued...

tearfullly frustrated.

2007-12-10T02:42:00.000+08:00

well. it doesnt makes any better when im feeling of running away . again.
counting back. its de 2nd time since 2 weeks ago.

full of disappointment.
full of sadness.

im so seriously not in de mood for anything.
and i so hate the fact that i still needa mug for my supply chain.
u noe. i felt so cursed afterall.
so deadly embedded with those stuffs that hurts me.

mayb.
i should changed my email account.
changed my msn account.
closed my friendster.
closed my blogger account.
closed my livejournal account.
closed my facebook account.

i'll be de unknown.

goodbye ppl.
till den. i'll come back if i feels any better.

a choice.

2007-12-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

term tests is just one corner. waiting for me.
its kinda sad to know tt ive only one more day to study for bsi, and 2 more days for my supply chain.
crushed!

and i gonna be dead packed dis week.
monday. studyin bsi & supply chain.
tues. term test & studyin
wed. term test
thur.work + birthday celeb.
fri.diving center + bbq
sat.workin.
sun.workin.
* and ive a pending mahjong session.
* and ive onli two weeks to clear my crm project.plus supply chain individual report.
and it dosent seems any better when nick's off/half day clashed wif my super packed days.
im seriousli . haix.
im feeling so chui abt everything. when things start to oppose me.
when things jus not on my side anymore.
whenever i felt that 24hrs a day is not enuff.
sometimes, i do wonder if ive made e right choice.

suddenly i just felt so.. BLANK .

i believe that its a choice.
that we should treasure and cherish.

u come tell me why..

macaroons <3

2007-12-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

oh woo!

had been raining kinda heavily.. and so persistently dis few days. *cold* *cold*
everyone still de very slacky mood. lol.
gt back my supply chain quiz. kinda sad actually when i knew ive onli 2 marks for my mcq section *sobs*
14 out of 20. nth impressive. ):

n 2moro. i still wonder. at this point of time 12.53am. whether ive APEL lesson 2moro.
lol. handling up de portfolio? i dunno.
no one has an answer for me.
and everyone seems so lazy as well. cant be bothered*
hahah. i should be writing up my resume and everything. bud im now blogging happily.
lol.

*lazy*

no better word could describe me now.

oh yeap. on a happier note. met my sweetest boy on such a *nice* weather. lol.
i rushed down all de way from tampines to paragon to get him some macaroons from canele.
i wanna surprise him for some sweet treats.bud sadly.. most of de flavors are OOS. ):
so ive onli managed to get coffee and lemon. haha.
and yup. in de end. im still late. after all those brisk walking and everything. lol.
& ENCHANTED seems so sweet and funny (:
thanks to those chipmunks that makes it so hilarious. haha.
and we laughed so loud when theres a *funny* smell in de cinema.
lol. thanks to de rain. everyone gt hongkong feet! =P

alright. thats it for 2day. nice weather. which make me so dead lazy. lol.
ive work 2moro still. after those crm project and everything.

when everything seems so nice <3

photos!

2007-12-05T12:11:00.000+08:00

alright! 1st thing 1st!

to my class bunchies :
dis is the link to classouting photos!

the bubbletea and ktv session terribly sicked me. ):
i seems to be coma when im sleeping past 17 hrs. haha.
bud dead still. my flu and voice has not fully recovered yet..

bud anyway!
will be going back to work later :) *excited*
ive stopped working for a month.. and im starting to eat grass!
hahaha! and im determined to train my part timers well (:

oh mind. the rain seems so comfortably lovely.
ive always have dis stupid craving for donuts during raining days .. hahaha.
and the usual "nesting" under my quilt on my comfy bed!
bud sucks. ive CRM lesson later.
and i wonder if ive ample time to rush down for work.

if ive those extra hrs..

i love the way it is.

2007-12-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

oh yeap!

let de party begins. as MP ends yesterday lo!
heh!

went waraku-ing @ marina square. ho ho ho.
great restaurant i mus say. (:
with tatami room and everything. all seems nice!
i gonna bring my nick there one fine day (:

we ppl! in de tatami room (:

the FUNNIES (:

realli enjoyed ourselves yuP!
derrick drove us with his pickup. hahaha! damn cool lar. =P
went bark cafe. kinda nice place (:
played de games. DRINK AND DRINK. hahaha.
de scam on yihua is damn hilarious. till he 80% drunk.

while de rest went to pee. HAHA

*CHEERS* to the end of MAJOR PROJECT !

i still love dis - my volka lime (:

we say bye to MAJOR PROJECT!

HO HO HO! - BIRTHDAY MAN derrick! (:

i could hold those drinks! im not drunk! (:

oh well. nice nice day spend wif my classmates
lol. THANKIES DERRICK FOR SENDING US HOME.
even thu he dragged me to be the last person to be sent home >.<"
nearly 2 hrs of travelling u knoe. jus to send everyone home . hahaha
travelled all de expressways in spore. haha.
bud yup. HAPPY BIRTHDAY OKAY!
STAY YOUNG! (:

so thats all for yesterday.. haha..
told my nick abt what i did yesterday. haha.
1stly is EAT EAT EAT
den is DRINK DRINK DRINK.

n he told me. den SING SING SING right?
HAHAHA. bingo!
bud it will be on monday .. with those bunchies (:
oh man. he say he understand my pattern. HAHA.
lol. its kinda nice of him. to have all my freedom and everything with my friends.
hahaha. i felt so blessed k.
it seems like we've been together for so long.

and ive been superly good 2day.
haha. i went back gym-ing. (:
nafa test cuming. CHUI. ive not ran for de past 2 months.
gonna start my engine! haha. dun wan it to turn rusty (:
yup! so feeling good and everythinG!
and even thou nick was away for home. hoho.
could not throw any celebration dis few days.
for him - ending of his exams.
for me - ending of MP.
hahaha. bud nvm . wait till next week?

i love de way it is. the way u r (:
looking forward to your return!
*loves*

just one more day!

2007-11-29T21:22:00.000+08:00

phew~! a sign of relief.

JUST ONE MORE DAY BABY!

and den. i could properly catch my breath (:

supply chain still sucks.
gone for de presentation and report. gd luck to elaine & ridwan who are doing de case study 2.
ho ho ho! its jus freaking disturbing case study ive done.
waste of time / waste of so many millions of brain cells / waste of so many nights spent cracking de concepts out / waste my time on those recommendations that i could hardly time for dell.
which concludes y.. I HATE MICHAEL DELL.
damn. i never gonna buy any DELL computer for once.
i wun let DELL earn my $$. i wan your supply chain to chui! hahahaha.
ive seriously gone mad becos of de case study on DELL COMPUTERS.

so for once. dun ask me abt computers. abt DELL computers.
i will ARKKSKSS. !!

haha
crm sucks as well. hhaa
i think. i could onli scored 60 marks. damn sad k.
even though i studied. bud onli came out in de mcq. hahaha.
so idiot. bud since 50% of my peers copied during de quiz. i might as follow de crowd. HAHAHA.
bud yeap. i jus copied de 20 marks. to at least made me PASS. =X

and tomoro. de BIG THING.
major project judging. haha. actually.. im kinda relax abt dis matter. lol.
ive always presented de end product during presentations and everything.
reports also write till can memorize.
so.. haha.. anyhow lar. kinda confident in presenting my part.
so yup. i gonna throw one big celeb. after de judging. (:

damn.. how i wish my term tests could end quick. which would be on de 11th and 12th.
WOOHOO. jus in time for my zi's birthday. (:
also my boy's birthday. <3
linjie's birthday. (",)

haha. dis gonna be my wonderrfull december .. my wonderful break.
its my onli motivation thu.
next to de last run before i GRADUATE.
sem 3.2 realli a tough one. indeed a super killer sem for us.

oh right. for once.
i needa sleep early.
actually. im so dead tired after 2day's lesson. im so out of breath when i reached home for dinner.
well. a good night sleep for 2night.
haha. take cares ppl.

*loves.

happy happy (:

2007-11-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

my day diden start off good.
my grp thingy nearly blood me off. i nearly used all those nasty words. those "bad" language.
arhs. bud anyway. we submitted de reports 2day.. phew~

and .. those disappointments.

bud luckily. my boy was being nice to ask me out for dinner. haha.
he had his exams running. and ive my projects to clear.
bud yup. he knew i was sick de last few days.. and being so pissed off and dead yesterday.

and so . finally. i had my kenny roger. =X
ive been yearning so much dis few weeks actually. lol.
and still rmb my fav dish after our first kenny roger years ago.

thankies so much okies.
my moodswing was cuming. i nearly crumble myself down.bud u saved everything/prevent it to start.
im so blessed to have him when im de verge of breaking down.
u had your studies to clear, its real sweet that u still set aside some time for me. at least.
best of luck for your upcoming exams okays :)
soo. everything is back to its pace. fine and well.
i gonna clear dis week fast! im returning work next week again.
haha. kinda excited dis time round. im kinda determined to train my new part timers well.. lol. and which means i get to see my boy more often (:

heh. till den.
many loves to my sweetest boy <3

"I sees in every reason behind that its just being so true, as reality holds back things that seems so well and fine afterall. ."

2007-11-27T01:22:00.000+08:00

my god.
im really on de verge of breaking down.

my cramps and stomache pain has been glue-ing for de past 3 days.
my projects are in all directions killing me.
im totally pissed off .. f**k
things jus arnt as smoothly as it seems.
im really getting sick and tired of all these.
damn. could u ppl think? could u ppl be more thoughtful? could u ppl be more serious?
i really feel like SKIN-ING ppl alive.

"I sees in every reason behind that its just being so true, as reality holds back things that seems so well and fine afterall. ."

if anyone could understand what im thinkin. what im feeling right down.
i realli feel like running away even though ive someone i truely cherish.
its kinda sad to feel dis way.
its kinda disappointed to think dis way.
bud it hurts me . of treating me like dis.

goodbye for de moment.

till den.
a one week grace.

im looking forward to my 50%

2007-11-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

damn. im still so stucked with reports.
MANY REPORTS.editing.presentations.quizes.judging.
im so dead lar.
>.<"

dis 2 weeks having the same fate of all dis.
and it seems like after all dis.
IVE ONLY ONE WEEK BREAK.
before my term tests starts.
arhs.
life so damn shag. so tiring .

ive no much time for my sweetest boy.
and he too. have not much time to spend wif me.
lol.
we r both so stucked wif studies.
at the same time. and yup.
ends at de same time too (:
and we are yearning for our december so badly lar. hahaha.

back on track.
i die die gonna rush through my supply chain case studies report by erm. 9.30pm.
haha. ive jus started doing actually.
its gonna be impressive if im able to finish by 2night.
bud well. mus still try!
as im meeting my boy 2night for supper (:

and 2moro.
i would be stucked wif BSI project. i hate de idea of visiting de diving centre realli. arhs.
WASTE MY TIME.
and ive de mission statement to rush.
whao.

monday..
i think i gonna be dead busy wif supply chain case studies stuff.
CHUI.

tuesday.. will be compiling de c-com project report bah.
ive done my part. bud i still needa edit their parts.
>.<"
chui man.

wednesday. i needa be a good girl. spending my whole day studying CRM.
ho ho ho. im never wake for dis subject's lecture u knoe.
im always falling asleep. as its too boring for me.
and theres its quiz on thurs!

thursday. still .
i need to prepare myself for friday's MP judging day.
its gonna live or die.
haha.

friday.
YAY! my boy ended his exams. bud is leaving spore anyway.
lol. bud a mini celebration for my groupie bah! (:
at least.. we will relax abit. 50% done! be4 i GRADUATE. hhahaha

SATURDAY & SUNDAY.
im still wondering what to do for de weekend.
and since my boy wasnt ard. i gonna start clearing up my tonnes of rubbish in my room.
my room starts turning into a refuge shelter since de day im so dead busy wif my projects.

till den!

im blogging dis post. cos im s0 superly sian if what im doing currently.
REPORTS. & MORE REPORTS.
and im starving badly.
my dad is not home for my lunch yet!
):

I terribly hate dis song ):

2007-11-19T19:41:00.000+08:00

my song mood right now : Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

"What Hurts The Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
As what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

U know. u hurts me deeply for what u've mentioned.
i really tot the distance,the years could just brush us off.
I always tot u knows me best. u could easily understands me..
bud mayb.. im wrong all dis years..

indeed.
you are always the one.. hurts me the most ..

whenever and whatever (:

2007-11-18T01:50:00.000+08:00

arhs.

i dunno what happened to my body lately.
after ying's bbq. im sicked for 3 days.
recovered. fever again.
recovered.
and now. de flu and cough jus came back. >.<"
haha.. mayb becos i stayed @ home for too many many days!
and even thu im so bombarded wif deadlines. i did nth on my saturday!
omg. can u imagine? i woke up @ 11 plus.. bud went back to sleep till 3 plus. and onli went to de library to borrow up a bk.
gonna work on it 2moro man. (:
*homebounded* i need to clear all my stuffs!!

and i could onli get to see my sweetest boy next week..
hohoho! how nice if u are my neighbour. jus living next to me. (:

till den.
byes and loves*

to my sweetest boy (:

2007-11-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

ooo..

1st thing 1st..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST DADDY!!
oh my.. it has been so long.. since de day my hse was so lively (:
everyone was happy.. enjoying ..

bud yup. i look so damn short >.<" hahha..
anyway.. to my dearest daddy..
wishing u with good health..
and more wealth.. haha.
loves my mummy more okay.
happy family always (:

*****

and on the other side..

THANKS ZI for all de good luck okay (:

to my wj and wa. u can have a peace of mind. that your girl has finally found her "someone" to be well taken off. *yayness*
haha.. dis time is for real. no bluffs.. no acts..hahaha..
and yup. Buddies forever okies (",)

i gonna grab hold of everything that dosent cums easy..
everything that seems so sweet..

many loves from me to my sweetest boy.
till de very end <3

my sweetest boys (:

2007-11-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

heh!

my beloved wj has been the sweetest ever (:

read abt his girl being sick for de past few days.. bud wasnt aware of it till she recovered..
feeling so bad abt it..

he actually team up with weian to send me a video.
becos his girl once said " i miss u playing piano.. de images became so vivid tt i could hardly rmb"
soo..
he actually fake/act up as a PROFESSIONAL MUSICIAN. hahahaha.
playing my fav piece.. paint my love <3
and indirectly telling me to take care of myself.

to my dearest wj and wa... thankies for everything.. u ppl had always been my sweetest boys.
go back melbourne and find a gf soon k ..
they gonna be de most happiest gf on earth (:
many loves to u ppl (:

bud still.
some should know y..
sometimes a supper could just easily happy me up in terms of everything (:

50 great ways to surprise your girlfriend (:

2007-11-15T02:08:00.000+08:00

lol..

MICHAEL DELL is seriously killing me..
de report on his DELL COMPUTERS.. i seriously have no idea how to write.
HELP!
ive gone mad becos of him..

bud on another matter.
zi.. mayb u are right.. U ARE BRINGING ME LUCK. haha.
lol. tok to u non-stop until i left my tutorials undone. lol.
thanks for listening to my problems yah (:
i think i gonna write my own book soon .. "50 WAYS TO SURPRISE YOUR GF"
haha..

okay.. i needa rest in soon. back to skool 2moro.
im so afraid tt i'll forget to submit my MC..
*war*

still. its still nice seeing u again (:
-minus de random jian-ness btw us..
-plus de usual rubbish btw us..

oh baby, im back!

2007-11-14T01:54:00.000+08:00

hahaha..

u ppl gonna be shocked of how many unposted drafts i had with blogger.com
its 10 posts in total.. hahah.

im always.. stucked. and jus left it there.

well..things jus arent going on my side.
projects are freaking disturbing me..

and yep. im sick. SICK.
sick at de wrong time realli.. arhs..

and on de other side. i jus finish fa-xie-ing to my buddy on certain matters.. haha.
seems so rubbish.
but yup. its bothering me as well.
HELP ME!
zi.. i seriousli hoped u help me think of 10 good solutions.. hahahha..
and thats de reason y im giving up. im so dead tired of all thses..
soon.. i goona say GOODBYE.
so here it goes.. decided to have a grace period until end of 2007. (:
pls. i have been superly kind!

and sadly enough. theres not much news of wj and wa recently.
until erm. last fri? haha..
forever asking me to join u ppl for your annual christmas party.
and i think its de reason why i fall sick.
haha.. u know what i mean.
i cant give up my dearests' birthdays jus to spend de christmas wif u.
its seems fun.. buden. i think. i gonna stick wif my dearests (:
n den.. mayb when i turn 21.. its kind of easier to fly alone to see u guys (:

so now. whats up?
IM BOMBARDED WIF SUPPLY CHAIN STUFFS.
dis module is in all directions-KILLING ME.
n theres still mp..case studies.. blar blar. im really dying..

ive seriousli tot alot during my "sick" days..
oh my.. i really miss you (:

alright.. promise gonna update as frequent as possible yah.
*chasing de busy wormy lazy bees*

*many loves from me.. to u ppl (:

u never see me if ive no u (:

2007-10-25T23:43:00.001+08:00

omg.
skool stuff is killing me.
with deadlines .. deadlines and MORE DEADLINES.

as usual. all projects and assignments are thrown @ us in one shot.
just for c-com. theres 3 deadlines of assignments in 4 weeks time. lol.

just the good thing that im happy abt.
NO EXAMS FOR MY 3 MODULES!! so.. i can happily enjoy my chinese new year.!
and yup! means i start my freedom even earlier!!! (:
just a term test in december mid week.
U PPL GONNA BE ENVIOUS! =P

so just for de time being. i think i would be rather busy wif assignments.
gonna stop work @ sakae soon i think.
every week theres something, either a quiz/assignment deadline/project submission/project presentation/interview/PBL..

nvm. i gonna tahan all this 20 weeks till IM FREE.!

and yup. as usual. im late for lecture. hahaha.
and we are so damn bored of those modules. TOTALLY NO INTEREST @ ALL.
im so dead meat.
and we took one phto to show our boredness.

hahahaha.

2moro gonna start doing our assignment!!
whoohoo.
and sadly. ive work 2moronight.

u never see me if ive no u (:

the very fun moment (:

2007-10-24T00:24:00.000+08:00

backs. with lotsa photos.
bud ive not yet upload to my photobucket.

so here.. some of de photos taken @ Dinner & Dance 2007 - suntec ballroom (:

MY DEAREST BRO (:

THE DRUNKEST MOO MOO FROM PARKWAY =P

THE HAPPY FAMILY (:

the same old ppl getting drunk and everything.
lol. de food is kinda terrible. bud no one realli cares abt it.
hahha.. everyone is so high on beers/voldka.. etc.

as for school. everything is fine till now.
i think ive onli one paper to sit for my exam in next feb.
how fabulous it is! (:

till den.
looking forward to winnie's birthday celebration dis sunday!
ciao~!

*loves.

BOO BOO CAKE (:

2007-10-21T02:12:00.000+08:00

HO HO HO.

finally. after so much of complaints.. begging and bullying..
my nick finally brought me over to nydc for boo boo cake-ing (:
hahaha.
i seems so evil. buden. i deserves it =P

lol. and the elephancino seems so rubbish.
he dun drink sweetty coffey stuffs.
im so sensitive to coffee. whereby im bounded to have insomnia nights..
bud we ordered the cuppa.coffee.chino.
it turned up so damn sweet!
i seriously dun have sweety toothy..
so..
we decided to add ice water to blend it.
den..
my bro came up with a lame idea.. when we dun seems to be finishing it.

nick: haha. we add until kinda full. den it will be very bland.
then we gonna ask the waiter/waitress to abt the blandness.
hehe.. den its time that we can smoothy cancel the order instead.
me: so JIAN!. =X

so damn rubbish lar he.

buden. thankies for the treat okay. even though its kinda DELAYED!

till then. theres still work 2moro night.
im thinking of visiting the career fair actually.
shall see whther i could get up in time.
n hopefully. ive extra time to get the pair of shoes from pazzion.
many stores ran out of my size. 35.
):

shall see how lucky i am.

cute leh! (:

peepoopeepoo!

define parking.

2007-10-20T01:01:00.000+08:00

haha.
i swear i must practice my parking till perfect by monday.
nick very scared of my parking , daniel also scared of my parkin.
and even im scared of my parking lo!. =X

but yeap. 2day mission actually is to practice de parking thingy.
buden. i brought daniel along. den picked up mr nick along for supper. LOL.
he must had felt honoured that he happen to be my 1st passenger. excludin daddy and mummy .
hahaha.

i think. driving along expressway is so much much better then those junctions.

*dun horn me okay*

HAHAHAHA.

ohright.
and i gonna say. bringing pets for makan is fun actualli.
daniel realli has lotsa attention-capturing power!

oh baby, im ready for school~!

loves**

u rock my world~

2007-10-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

i wanted to blog so much. bud i din have the chance.
cos bro was busy downloading his stuffs. tt teribly disrubted my connection speed.

hahaha. im so whippy happy u noe.
weian wrote in the email saying its perfectly okay that i lost my bracelet.
bud i know.. u are damn sad as well.
cos im always losing things that u gave me.
bud heres the great news..

I FOUND MY BRACELET.!!!!!

thanks so much to HARD ROCK CAFE.
their staff found it. i kow tow to their honesty.
and den de realisation of the branded stuff.
in de past. i really think that tiffany and co is on par with moshi moshi or perlinis silver.
bud omg. its de branded thing thats sits together with gucci,coach,prada..

n yup. i found the price tag @ gallerie..
*shocked*
to my dearest weian. i promise u that i gonna be careful when wearing it..
and not gona lose it again.
(:

so here. wishing my dearest wj & wa. HAPPY HOLIDAYING!
im so envious of u ppl one month holiday ard europe u know!
take care okay and
many loves from me :)

yup yup!
timetable is OUT!
hahaha. damn shiok semester.
monday : 9-6
tues : no skool.
wed : no skool.
thur : 1-6
friday : 10-1

LOL. so ive onli one terrible day. MONDAY.
YAYNESS!!!!

oh baby,u rock my world~

my hard rock cafe

2007-10-18T00:57:00.000+08:00

happy birthday my sexy father !!

hohoho!

even though im so lack of sleep.so dead tired after my morning shift.
i still drag myself to meet dem for dinner @ HARD ROCK CAFE (:
pls. the foodie ROCKS (:

i shall not say much.. photos are uploaded @ my photobucket. (:

arhs.. bud sadly.
i lost my favourite bracelet. *cries* i dunno where i dropped it also.
arhss. im so damn sad man.
im so sorry my dearest weian. i lost my 19th birthday gift from u.
i realli love the tiffany and co bracelet.
its just fated..

till den. i realise. it meant so much to me.
):

I wish fer a pair of wings~ to fly across de ocean.. jus to see u...

Moved (:

The painful U-Turn

I'm finally back (:

i wish everything gonna last.

of all the reasons..

Free (:

tune of happier notes

the sudden return.

sick cat

a blessing. definitely.

a journey.

going insane.

ventolin's tremor.

There is no balance.

depressed.

life.

its never easy.

carousel (:

slap me.

hmmm

my anti depression drug

how much is the worth?

a choice.

baby danielle

children anti mosquito spray.

my desk!

trust. me.

a true fact.

susuki.

again and again.

a week of MC.

simple makes beautiful happiness

saturday moveover.

m.i.a

coma.

the shared happiness.

white & more white (:

of the right way ; of the right thing

aww..

bus 61 terror.

the holiday affair.

sense of directions.

a reflecting holiday (:

a holiday note .

nice day (:

piyo going crazy.

disastrous results.

The game.

never gets too involved

lets welcome changes (:

a week to rmb.

F9

women are from venus.

hibernating

every second holds a meaning.

happy valentine's day <3

no.1 , no.2 & no.3

kick . kick

from truck to lorry (:

of those i wanna grow old with (:

quiet.

** weddings **

garang garang * wayang wayang

motivated!

a jab of happy dose worth a million

still content?

home bound.

love you!

i really do feel like crying

time to get some rest

MC.

of my great friend (:

becos i so love u.

2007 & 2008

of my fav flowers.

of the many days of celebrations.

perplex!

let the party begins (:

moving on (:

weddings